Mania +All American+

Chapter 14: upside down

(A/N. Now that we are to the end if the season, who is your favorite person that jade interacts with? Also there may be some controversial ideas in this chapter, just know I love and respect you all no matter the opinion, and the decisions are just what I feel my OC would do. It is in no way a judgement.)

"Spencer, I cant look," I said handing him the test.

He didnt have to say anything. I saw it in his face like I did with the last test. I'm pregnant. And no number of test will tell us anything different.

"What am I going to do," I panicked.

"Tell JJ. Hes gonna understand. He helped make the the kid."

"Spencer..." I said slowly.

"Its Shawn's isnt it?"

"yes, but I am going to talk to JJ though. I need to break it off. ," I said sighing.

"Jade. JJ may not react how you think," Spencer comforted me.

"As soon as I go to the doctors they are going to pull me off my meds. Ive done research all day, my meds would be dentramental to the child," I explained, "I can't expect him to still love me preganant and off my meds."

"Want me to drive you?" He asked me.

I nodded my head and we got in the car. I knew he thought I was making the wrong decision, but I really like JJ. Alot. And he deserves someone better then my fucked up ass.

When Spencer drove me to the house I grabbed my test and walked up to his house. I shakily knocked on the door and he opened it almost immediately.

"Jade, are you okay?" He asked me hesitantly.

"We need to take a break," I told him.

"What, why?" He asked confused.

I handed him the test. His eyes became wide and a little sad.

"You cheated on me?"

And in that moment I realized something Spencer said to be true. JJ will continue to be a nice guy and try to help me. And in the long run I will only hurt him becuase I dont deserve him. I may as well hurt him before we get to attached.

"I'm sorry Jay," I said lowly, tears filling my eyes.

I'm about to ruin one of the only healthy relationships in my life. But I'm doing it for JJ. Im doing it so I dont hurt him.

"Go! Get out!" He yelled at me.

Tears filled in my eyes as I walked away. I got into the car with Spencer and he drove us silently to Crenshaw. I was crying the whole way there and I know it will be worse when I tell corey and grace.

I havent filed the paperwork yet, so technically I'm still their child. Let's see if I am in a few minutes.

"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" Corey asked seeing my tear stained face.

"I've really messed up, dad," I whispered and started to cry again.

Once i tell him hes going to leave again. I'm going to drive him away.

"Its okay. We can figure it out," he said ignoring my moms protest.

"I'm pregnant," I whispered, but everyone heard.

"With who's. JJ?" Mom asked.

"Shawn's. We were dating before he died," I confessed.

"Its fine sweetheart," mom told me.

"Really?"

"Yeah. I'll take you to a clinic and we will solve this little problem," she told me with a fake smile.

"No. I cant do that my baby. They dont deserve that!" I yelled at her.

"Your whole life will be ruin, no more dance for you!" She yelled back.

"Grace, stop. Stress isnt healthy for her or the baby," Corey put her in her place.

"Fine. We wont get rid of it. We will just put it up for adoption, " she said and walked away.

Now that my mom brought it up, a thought cant leave my head. I know it's a baby, but one doctors appointment and my next semester of highschool will be normal. I could dance and not have to worry about a little human.

God why did she have to put the idea in my head! Corey had left with my mom leaving me confused in the livingroom and touching my stomach.

"Jade," spencer said grabbing my hands,"with this baby I will either hold you hand in a clinic or I will hold you hand in a delivery room. But I promise to be there no matter the choice."

I hugged my brother tightly and didnt want to let go. Right now it felt like Spencer was my last tie. The only one keeping me stable.

"I'm gonna keep the baby," I told him after a few minutes,"they are my baby made from my mistakes. I dont want it to pay the price for my mistakes. I've spent my whole life paying the price for someone else's mistakes and I refuse to do it to the child."

"And I'll be here to help you," he told me.

Mom refused to look at me for the rest of the night. She did tell my th at I wpuld be moving back home. Considering I'm no longer welcome with JJ, I think this is my best option. After while corey pulled me aside.

"What is it dad?" I asked him confused.

"Jade I know who your mom is."