THE WRONG NOTE | m.yg

chapter : seven

raena was lost in thinking about her boss as she walked the rest of the way home. it wasn't far. just about five minutes which gave her time to catch her breath and just think.

she couldn't help but feel a smile creep its way on her lips as she thought about seokjin. she didn't know how to explain why she "liked" him. but her heart beats all the time around him. she excitedly skipped her way home.

then raena began to think about the store in which yoongi might shop. it was ridiculous but she said she was going to do it and she did not get off a bus at an unknown place when they first met for nothing. plus she wanted to be friends. it would be the first time she'd make a new one since she met taehyung. they had a mutual friend and already slept on each other so being friends is the next best thing!

he fell asleep on her. and she has evidence of it. she smiled to herself as she realized she can use it to blackmail him one day if it comes to that.

when it comes to that.

she sighed. a part of her feared yoongi was going to hate her for how much she talked and how cheery she is. her whole friendship speech was unheard by him since he was sleeping. maybe if she offered to be friends he would just reject her. if taehyung can be friends with her and yoongi's friends with taehyung, why can't they be friends?

raena shook her head to get the negativity out of her head just as a gust of wind flew past her. she let out a cough then a smile formed on her face. oh well, maybe she is annoying but she wasn't going to mope about it all day. instead she kept a smile on her face and walked home.

inside, she removed her coat and instantly headed to the shower. luckily, she had her basket of extra clothes so she wouldn't have to go back to her room and look for anything. It's laziness disguised as efficiency, jeongguk says.

she removed her dirty work clothes and stepped into the warm shower. she sang as she scrubbed her body removing her hard day of work. she scrubbed her shoulders on beat with the song and scrunched her face in ridiculous expressions.

suddenly the lights turned off. raena stopped mid-song and winced when the house was dark.

raena frowned and realized that maybe jeongguk hasn't fixed the light box like he said he would last week. he promised he'd be the one to take care of it since he knew how. she reminded him the entire month. she had the urge to yell but her brother wasn't even home but at work at the video game store.

shaking her head she finished her scrubbing and washed off all the soap. she turned off the water and dried herself off to quickly get dressed.

once clad in clothes, raena decided to put on a face mask to help her skin. the darkness did not faze her as it was still a little light outside. the sun hidden behind the clouds still managed to provide some light that shone through the bathroom window.

when she was done, she went back to her room, tripping on a few random items on the floor. while she let the face mask work on her face, raena decided to put candles around the house.

she took her favorite jolly rancher scented candle--which jeongguk hated--from the stool next to her bed and carefully went to the kitchen to light it up. she placed it in the living room and got the flashlight to bring with her.

suddenly the door of the house flew open the minute she turned on the light. before her stood her brother, blinded by the light staggering and stinking of alcohol.

raena screamed in fright by his sudden entrance and he jumped at the sound.

"what the heck?!" she yelled after the smell of alcohol filled her nostrils. "oh my gosh, you scared me! where were you?"

jeongguk blinked his eyes a couple of times before addressing his angry younger sister.

"don't worry i didn't do anything," jeongguk sighed as he knew exactly what she was thinking. her face plastered with the face mask and her angered expression made her look like a monster. "i just stepped into the bar surrounded by coworkers who were drunk, okay? but not me. i'm not. haha, look at your face, not so cheery now, huh? with your "i'm a happy person life is perfect!'"

raena didn't want to acknowledge jeongguk drinking simply because she knew he had a habit of not admitting to his problems. he wasn't an avid drinker but she and he himself always feared that could happen and their family's history of cancer initiated by excessive alcohol drinking was something they always considered. It wasn't genetic but the habit of being attracted to alcohol always felt like it. their mother used to have been an avid drinker despite her father dying of cancer because of it, but it was a cycle she didn't know how to quite handle. how else can one face the death of a parent if not through a liquid that temporarily washes the pain away, but how are you facing the death of a parent by doing exactly what caused them to be in the coffin? how do you honor a parent that way? thankfully, her drinking never escalated to the extent of death, especially when she found someone to compliment her life. her husband. then their twins.

raena thought about what they would think about jeongguk's behavior. they would probably say they have nothing to do with it, but she knew that was a lie, that had everything to do with it.

but why now? why is he acting out now? why is he trying to shut me out?

she sighed, trying her best to ignore his comments. she was not liking the negative vibes. "you know you forgot to fix the stupid box?" she said, turning off the flashlight. "were you not at work today?"

"yes, i was," jeongguk nodded all child-like, avoiding her gaze. he hated whenever she looked at him like that, like he did something wrong. "and can you stop with that look? its bumming me out. you're not a bummer. where's all your positivity?" he mimicked her with the flailing of his arms and a high pitched voice. "weee i'm so happy!"

"you know you're acting exactly like those kids back in high schools who used to make fun of me for just being talkative and positive and cheerful— and notice how positive those things are. i wasn't being made fun of for being pessimistic or rude or disgusting i was made fun of for being a happy person and you let them. why am i getting so rejected for being this way? i like being this way! I don't like the negativity! why do you think i suggested we move out? because i don't like the way our parents act! i don't like yelling at you even though you hurt me! i don't like seeing you upset! so i will do what i can to change that! i want to bring positivity in my life and to the people i encounter. can i do that without you making fun of me because that behavior of yours is so immature. the fact that you think i am immature for sucking up life's hurt and smiling along is bull —"

that's what raena would have said aloud if she had the guts. but she said it herself, she didn't like the negativity. it's why she tried to make things right, make it positive.

her brain didn't get a chance to finish the sentence but jeongguk probably would have gotten the point. instead of her speech, raena felt a pang of hurt.

"i..." she fought back tears knowing if she started crying he'd make fun of her for that too, all because he doesn't want to admit something. "bye," she said forcefully, "i have to take this mask off." she finished, and walked back into the bathroom.

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hmmm what do you think about that idea of being positive and trying to spread that around? is it a good trait to have? a bad one? a burden?

anyways make sure to vote and comment if you want to let me know!