dandelions - kagehina

#FELTBAD😔😟😞😣😢💔

lol people deadass won't comment on the last chapters, is my hard work a joke to y'all?- 💔

"felt bad? for what?", the ginger questioned as sakusa sighed in annoyance and wiped off beats of sweat from his forehead (lol is this rhyming-).

"felt bad because now i know the feelings of the both of you could mean different cherishes of friendship.", he stated as if it'd be the hardest thing to admit once in a while.

of course, it wasn't a good confession, neither was it wrong but hinata just didn't want to hear it. he didn't want to know about the possibilities of staying in an unrequited feeling that'll stay unrequited because apparently there's something wrong with loving your best friend.

"ah", hinata simply exclaimed instead of giving away a proper comment. "why's that?"

"it's because your friendship means a lot to the both of you and neither do i want to chime into this feeling but.. be prepared for breaking?", sakusa lightly warned with a slight unsure tone of how to voice out this warning properly. (what's wrong with my writing and english today, i-)

"it obviously does", hinata mumbled as he ran his delicate fingers through the messy streaks of ginger resting on his scalp. "but what if neither of us could resist the risk of losing one another?", he now questioned smugly and made sakusa wrinkle his nose in disinterest.

"that's up to you then.. but don't you think your friendship's more worth than that?", sakusa now questioned and curiously watched hinata's expression fall into a rather slag and thoughtful one. with one shrug, hinata answered the latter's question silently, leaving sakusa in complete silence and confusion.

of course you knew the risk and still stuck around to find out how far the boundaries lie.

seemingly unsatisfied with the reply he received, sakusa shrugged it off like it wasn't anything important and went back to walking alongside hinata in enjoyable silence. still, so many questioned lingered in the back of his throat, threatening to spill and push past his rather plump lips which is why he purposely kept his mouth shut other than starting a conversation.

"i've been thinking about the same lately", hinata murmured from beside him as a rather sad expression covered the former thoughtful features of his face. "been thinking about.. unrequited feelings. i know he wouldn't feel the same even if he wanted to."

"why's that?", sakusa now allowed himself to ask because emphasis had to play bad jokes on him. "i'm sure he'd try."

fuck you, kiyoomi i-

"trying to love somebody is hard, even for a volleyball nerd with low grades and undeniably adorable pouts.", hinata mused as a bubbling laughter pushed past his lips and he grinned for a moment. as if all the sadness and hopelessness would fade away in one swift, it came back even faster.

"but when i watched him.. watched him be himself with all his flaws and habits, i remembered who i wanted to be. the one who's alongside him."

"do you think that'll change after he's taken your help with the struggle he's currently suffering under?"