Lost in Glorious Mischief

Memories

Loki wakes to find you laying on his chest, still asleep. He tries to move out from underneath you. He notices your veins begin to glow red slightly.
He tries to move again but can't get out from under you. He takes notice of how fast you begin to breathe.
Before Loki can react you let out a blood-curdling scream.
Loki freezes as your body tightens in pain.
"I'm right here Claire," Loki whispers as he places his hands on your temple.
Loki begins to tighten his body, not prepared for the amount of pain you were in.
He holds on, silently hurting trying not to wake you.
You are fighting him. He pushes harder for you to break down your wall and let him in.
Finally, the wall falls. Loki can see what you are seeing.
A man walking down the street with a metal arm. A man and woman being tossed into the street by two other men. They looked relieved but it quickly fades. The man with the metal arm looks back. It's Bucky. He's wearing a mask but his eyes are distinctive. He turns and faces the man and women. He raises a gun to them. They beg for their lives. Without hesitation, he shoots them.
A surge of pain rushes through you and into Loki. It's too much for him to take and he lets go.
"Claire! You need to wake up," he says, shaking you.
You sit straight up, breathing heavily.
"I saw them," you say, trying to catch your breath.
"Claire, who were they," Loki says standing, turning on a light.
You stand and pace the floor unable to speak.
"Claire?" Loki says, sternly.
You stop walking and lookup. Tears are streaming down your face.
"My parents," you say, your voice cracking.
"Bucky killed my parents," you mumble, shaking.
Loki notices your veins begin to glow again. He looks at your hands and sees sparks begin to form.
"Claire, you need to breathe," Loki says stepping toward you.
You try to catch your breath but can't, it gets worse. You begin to hyperventilate. The spark in your hands turns into a small flame.
"Claire, please try to calm down," Loki says taking another step forward.
"Don't," you yell, holding your hand up to stop him from walking forward.
"Don't, I don't want to hurt you," you say.
Loki attempts to step forward but before he reaches you an alarm goes off.
You both look up. It's the fire alarm.
A fire extinguisher goes off. Filling your room with a cloud of smoke.
Your door flies open. Steve, Natasha, Tony, and Bucky are making their way into the room.
"Loki?" Bucky says, confused, unable to see clearly.
"What the hell are you doing in here?" Bucky asked.
"I was helping Claire see a memory more clearly, and it worked. Just not in the way I had hoped, " Loki explained
"Where is Claire?" Natasha asked as the smoke cleared.
Loki turns back and looks to where you were standing.
"She was right here!" He says.
"Yeah, well now she's not," Tony says, pissed off.
"Stay here, I will fly out and look around. We don't want her causing any more harm to herself or anybody for that matter. Friday scan the building for Claire Porter" Tony says, leaving the room.
"You need to tell us what happened!" Steve says.
The four leave your room and head to the conference room.

~

It's dark and chilly. You are outside. You're confused about how you got there. You hear a window shutter slam in the wind. You turn toward the direction it came from.
You squint, there is something familiar about this place.
You begin to walk, soon realizing it is where you grew up. The house at the end of the road, now abandoned was your house. You walk down the street and stand outside the broken fence. You stare at the crumbling house. The yard is overgrown. The tire swing is broken. Barely noticeable in the dark through the shrubs. To your right a rusted mailbox. You wipe the dust away from it, "Porters,"
is it written on the side. A tear fall from your cheek. You take another look at the house and walk up the sidewalk.

~

Back at the compound Steve, Natasha, Bucky, and Loki have gathered in the conference room.
"Loki you need to tell us what happened, " Steve says, sitting at the conference table. Loki remained standing,
"How about you ask him," Loki says looking past both Steve and Natasha, agitated.
Steve stands up. Natasha and he turn to find Bucky standing behind them.
Steve turns back around to Loki
"What are you talking about, " he asked, glaring at Loki.
"That mission, they made her forget. The one that you were so troubled about this morning. How about you inform them of what you did, " Loki yells, walking around Natasha and Steve. Getting within a foot of Bucky.
Bucky's heart sinks.
"What is he talking about?"  Natasha hesitantly asks.
Bucky takes a seat in one of the chairs.
"I had to do it. You have to know, if I knew at the time I wouldn't have done it." Bucky says, trying to explain.
"What did you do, Buck," Steve asked crossing his arms.
Bucky lets out a sigh.
"It wasn't long after Claire was kidnapped by the Hydra soldiers. They kept her frozen, even long after I arrived. Until they needed her." Bucky begins to explain. Everyone's eyes are on him.
"When they thawed her they did unimaginable things to her. She was tough and tried to retaliate several times. It was as if she was still holding on to something. During her training, we got word that someone was looking into her disappearance. They were getting dangerously close to finding her. Hydra couldn't afford to lose her. We found who it was," he says pausing.
"Who was it?" Natasha asked
"Her parents," Loki says before Bucky could continue. Not breaking eye contact with Bucky.
"Yes," Bucky says. "It was technically her first mission. We tracked them down, followed them back to their house. When we arrived Claire's memory snapped and she remembered. The Hydra soldiers held her back as they dragged her parents out of the house. She tried to fight them but they had kept her up for days. She didn't have the strength," he pauses and tries to fight back tears.
"The worst part was seeing their faces when they saw their daughter alive, and the relief that washed over them, Well, it was short-lived. They begged me for their lives. I didn't hesitate. I killed them."
Steve and Natasha are speechless. Natasha tries to hold back tears.
Loki starts to get angry.
Bucky stands and steps toward Steve,
"Steve, I swear I had no control. I had to." Bucky says.
"After that, she became the best soldier. It was as if that hope she was clingy to died that day. She shut down. Became a submissive soldier. They made me kill them to control her." Bucky explains.
"How did you know about this," Steve asked, turning his attention to Loki. Loki turns to Steve.
"She has been having nightmares since she has been thawed. When she does have one, she feels nothing but pain. She can see the memories but they come out as though they have been scrambled." Loki explained
"Last night I found her screaming, I woke her up and stayed with her until she fell back asleep. This morning we decided that when she had another nightmare I would be there to take some of the pain away. The theory was if I could absorb the pain she would be able to see the memory more clearly. Obviously, it worked,  just not how I had hoped." Loki says. "Now, she is god knows where, possibly injured, and it's my fault," he says, trailing off.
"It's nobody's fault," Natasha says. "Let's just find her and get her back safe."
"Loki do you know where she could have gone?" Steve asked.
Loki shakes his head no.
"I know where she is," Bucky says.
"Where?" Natasha asked.
"She went home," Bucky says, looking up at the three.
"I'll go, I can teleport there," Loki says.
"Steve and I will go too just in case," Natasha says.
Loki and Natasha walk out of the room. Eager to get to you.
Steve walks up to Bucky,
"I know this isn't your fault Buck, but I need you to stay here," Steve says, placing a hand on Bucky's shoulders.
"Steve she is gone because of what I did. I need to see her. I need to apologize," he says.
"And you will. But she is already on edge. Seeing you may set her off," Steve explains to him.
Bucky reluctantly nods his head and agrees to stay.
Steve nods back.
He pulls his cellphone out of his pocket as he walks out the door. He calls Tony to let him know where they are headed.