Tranquilize Me (A Mötley Crüe Story)

3.

3:27 A.M

I can't sleep. I don't know what it is about this place. My body won't shut down no matter how much it wants to. The silence is killing me, making my heart race and my anxiety worsen. Nikki fell asleep long ago. Like clockwork, every 15 minutes a nurse comes and checks on us. Speaking of which, it's almost time again, and I'm just gonna pretend to sleep this time so I won't get scolded.

A couple minutes later, my door clicks open and I crack my eyes open just enough to see who it is. Earlier it was a nurse named Brandi, now it's a nurse who is ironically named Doc. He's a dick I heard.

"Tommy, Nikki, are you awake?" He asks, and a couple of seconds later I feel my blanket being ripped off of me as a flashlight searches over my entire body. Great.

"No." I mumble, not in the mood to pretend any more.

"You have to get sleep." Doc reminds me.

"Yeah." I roll my eyes.

He moves on to Nikki, which wakes him up this time. Doc isn't exactly the most gentle guy in the world. When he yanks Nikkis covers back, Nikki is dragged too. I brace myself for his torrent of yelling, ready to join him at this point.

"LET. ME. FUCKING SLEEP!" Nikki growls loudly, hopping into bed and grabbing his blanket back.

"Nikki, it's my job." Doc says.

I perch myself on the end of the bed, watching my sleepy, disheveled roommate glare at Doc from under his bedcovers. His hair looks like he stuck a metal fork in a socket currently. "Can't your job be going to suck a horse cock or I don't know....BUGGING SOMEONE ELSE?!" Nikki shrieks

"Shut it Nikki. Night you two." Doc says, exiting the room.

Nikki seems to instantly go to sleep, but I don't. The depressive thoughts hit the worst when I'm in complete silence. I don't know why. I feel so lonely and empty. I feel like this every day, but nights just intensify it.

You shouldn't be here.

You should be laying in your grave.

Life is just this endless sadness for you. You have to escape this Tommy. It's just hurting you to live, and everybody would be so much happier not having to worry about you.

Finally, I just curl up and block out the voices as much as I can. They're right though. Life is just an endless sadness, but it's because of them. I just want to end the suffering. I don't want to be in pain anymore. It's so overwhelming.

Around 5 A.M., a nurse comes in, actually flipping on our room light. "I'm sorry boys, but I have to check your vitals." She apologizes, grabbing my arm and starting to take my blood pressure. I just nod, laying back down.

The nurse  checks Nikkis vitals as well and leaves. Nikki sits up, staring at me. I sit up too, looking back at him. His dark hair flows around his shoulder. His green eyes search me, making me shiver. "Should we pretend to be asleep again?" I ask.

"No need. They don't come back in until six." He says, yawning.

A/N: not true, but for the sake of the story-

"Oh. So what do we do until then?" I ask.

"I have a couple ideas." Nikki hops off his bed.

"L-like what?" I ask.

"Well, we can either sneak down to the common room and watch some TV...or we could think of something else." Nikki sits right beside me.

"Like what?" I repeat.