Hello, I'm Calum Hood. I'm 19 years old. I'm in a band called 5 Seconds of Summer. People might say that I'm famous, I don't consider myself as 'famous'. People know that I exist but that's not what makes a person famous, I believe.
Anyways. Everyday I meet people, mainly girls, crying, screaming, almost faint all because of me and my friends. Sometimes that feeling's overwhelming, sometimes it's just annoying. In both cases I try to be as kind as possible. At the end of the day I'm just a human-being, I have bad and good days just like anyone else. People tend to forget that.
At meet'n'greets we basically meet people that either heard one song of us, sort of enjoyed it and asked their rich parents for meet'n'greet tickets or people who really enjoy our music and most importantly they love us as a person. Although they don't know us the majority of them treats us more than kindly.
Like at any other meet'n'greet we enter the room where fans are waiting, greet everyone of them, hug them, maybe take some pictures, talk for 30 seconds and it's over. Well, today it hasn't been any different than the meet'n'greets before.
One girl caught my attention. She wasn't crying or screaming, not chilled too but she was different. She's been talking to me like I was a normal person, that I am. No one ever treated me like that since we started being a band. There was something about her that made her ridiculously interesting. I'm not really able to figure out what it was but it kept me thinking about her.
On the bus I still couldn't forget about her. The way she put her long blond hair behind her should with this gently motion of her feminine hands. The smile she gave me before hugging her.
She gave me her twitter name, so I go on twitter searching for her account. The fact that she has cliffrd in her username kind of bugs me. Whatever.
After 15 minutes scrolling down her profile I realise that I'm actually stalking her right now. I want to dm her so bad, but that'd be weird, wouldn't it?
That night I can't brace myself from thinking about her. I can't keep my eyes closed. I open my phone again. Biting the edge of my fingernail I think about dm'ing her. I keep staring at the screen, going back and forth. I click on the dm button about ten times as I put my phone back under my pillow.
"Come on!" growl quietly, pressing my teeth together. It's 4 am and I still couldn't find any sleep. Getting my hands back on my phone, her profiles still opened. "Fuck it," I whisper. "I'm gonna message her."
"Hey" I type in order to delete it after one minute staring at this word. Then I decide to type it in again. Concemplating again I click the send button. Immediately regretting it. "What if she thinks I'm weird, Oh no."
As my phone vibrates I suffer from a tiny heart attack. Instantly I open the message.
"OMG WHAT? HEY CALUM! WE MET TODAY ASDFGHJKL I LOVE YOU" she replies.
With a slight smirk running over my lips I answer "Can we talk?"
"ARE YOU SERIOUS? WTF"
"Can we talk like normal human beings?"
"Yeah of course. I'm sorry. How are you?"
"I'm alright, can't sleep."
"aw I'm sorry, what's going on?"
"Nothing just weird thoughts."
"Oh. I have to tell Liv about this, she won't believe it."
"NO please don't!!"
"Eh k?"
"You can't tell anyone about that. I don't want anyone to know that I'm talking to a fan."
"What? Oh alright you're a hacker. cool bye."
"Noo"
She doesn't reply. Am I stupid to tell a fan that I have a crush on her, out of nowhere. Of course she won't believe me. Slamming my head into my palm I sigh deeply. Why did I just do that. I don't even know her. Now I'm never going to be able to talk to her over twitter, she's never going to believe me ever again. Dumb shit. Dumb shit. Dumb shit.
Did I really just think about having a relationship with a fan? That will never work.
My phone vibrates again. With a dart I pick it up off the bunk bed.
"Prove that you're Calum and not a disgusting hacker."she adds.
Blood rushing to my head I take a weird selfie and send it to her.
After 2 minutes she relplies.
"Omg hey Calum."
"Hey again."
"So why do you wanna talk to me? There are millions of girls that'd love to talk to you?"
"Idk, you seemed to be quite friendly at the M&G"
"Just friendly?"
"I also liked your shirt, though."
"Really? I love Metallica! I'm not one of these fans that only wear band stuff because of you guys lol."
"That's great. I don't get why they're doing it anyways."
"Ikr? probs to get your attention
"Yeah right. Well you've been successful"
"Wow thank you."
"That's the truth lol. What are you up to?"
"Nothing really, what about you?"
"Uh talking to you :)"
"I think it's best if I go to bed now, nice talking to you. Bye :)"
"Talk soon. Good night :)"
That was awesome. She's so nice. Oh my god what's going on? I can't stop smiling. Every nerve in me is tingling.
Not really sure about what just happened I fall asleep. It feels good to know that she doesn't think that I'm a total weirdo.
