Lost Boy ➸ a.i.+l.h. ✔️

twenty.

i aM SO EXCITED TO SHOW THIS CHAPTER I MEAN I THINK LASHTON DATE IT'S CUTE OKAY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

if you find any mistakes tell me please, as you know i'm NOT ENGLISH i'm portuguese (and no liam payne, i don't talk spanish)

i hope you enjoy it as much as i do :)

updating two times because i can xx

PS-If you see someone saying ''Wow I remember February like it was yesterday!'' please just... give them a hug from me

PPS-btw i noticed some chapters have more readers than the ones before, i don't know if that happens to your stories too but it's awkward

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3rd person

 Ashton placed his journal on the end of the bed, and went to the mirror. Luke knocked again and the curly haired boy shouted 'a minute'. Took a few seconds to adjust his white flower crown and blue sweater, opening the door right after. He saw Luke, and Luke was gorgeous. His hair was in the usual quiff, he was wearing a red flannel and a black shirt with black skinny jeans. He looks hot, Ashton thought and blushed with it.

''H-hi'' Luke said, he was feeling a bit nervous. What if everything went wrong? What if Ashton didn't like him and he ended up being rejected? ''You look handsome.''

''Hey Lukey.'' Ashton said while looking down and blushing ''You look pretty good too.''

''Thanks.'' he said, with a big smile on his face ''Ready for our date?''

''Completely.''

 They got out of the room and Ashton looked back seeing Calum and Michael spying on them. Michael showed a paper where you could read ''Hang in there tiger'' and Calum made tiger fingers and face. Ashton chuckled. Luke grabbed Ashton's hand interwining their fingers and the two boys went to the cafeteria. Everything was dark, but closer to a window where the moonlight was showing, there were some candles. Ashton gasped, it was beautiful.

''D-Do you l-like it?'' Luke asked feeling nervous, he and the psychologist made everything possible to be perfect

''I love it.'' he said, smiling.

 Luke kissed Ashton's cheek happily and took him to the table. Both boys loved the way they fingers fit with the other, like they were made for each other. The bracelets and blouses covering their wrists because of something bad seemed to don't matter anymore, they had each other, and they were feeling loved.

  They started eating dinner - spaghetti, luke choose it because Ashton told him that was his favourite food and he really missed eating spaghetti-, talking about the most random things. Bands, the life outside, plans for the future, etc. . But Ashton still wanted to know the story, the reason Luke was avoiding him and the story Luke didn't want to tell the other night.

''H-Hey Luke?'' Ashton asked, with a little bit of fear, but he had to do that.

''Yes Ashy?'' Luke said, his face was half covered by the moonlight and the other side was getting more dark. It made his eyes look beautiful because they were shining, full of love and sadness.

''Why w-were you av-voiding me?'' Ashton looked down.

''Ash I-'' Luke started, but Ashton cut him off.

''I'm sorry! I jus-I just wanted to know! There is some story behind and I just want to know since it basically has something to do with me. I'm sorry I-I ruined our date, I-I'm so pathetic...'' Ashton felt like crying, and he stopped feeling that was when Luke put a hand on his cheek making him look in his ocean blue eyes.

''There is no problem okay? I wanted to tell you in the end but I can't wait more time. You didn't ruin our date, the fact that you didn't give up on me even after I avoided you makes me feel so happy.'' Luke wiped a tear from Ashton's face while the curly haired boy smiled ''And loved.'' Luke brought one of Ashton's hand that was on the table to his mouth and kissed his fingers slowly. ''Do you want me to tell you Ashy?''

Ashton nodded ''Please Luke, I just want to know.''

Luke smiled a little ''Okay.'' he interwined their fingers and took a deep breath ''It all started on the orphanadge you were in. Remember it?'' Ashton nodded ''Well, I was in there too.'' blue eyes met the hazel ones, Luke's eyes were full with sadness and it broke Ashton's heart ''I remember the first day you were in there. You were 13 years old and i heard a woman saying your parents got in a car crash dying right after. You and your two little siblings survived.'' Ashton remembered that, but decided to forget ''Well, I was 11 years old and watched you everyday. It may sound creppy but... yeah I did. You were and are so beautiful Ash. I had this little book where I kept draws of you. You made my life worth it, I don't know why, but my parents kicked me out when I told them I liked boys

Trough the years I never had the courage to go and talk to you, I was suffering a lot too because i thought some things were my fault, and just liked watching you from afar. I remember when we went to school the first time you made friends and never noticed me. I didn't feel bothered though, I was the chubby kid on the back and you were a ball of sunshine. Always smiling and making the others happy even with the things that happened to you. Your smile made me smile so I was happy. That's when I realised I was falling pretty hard for you.

 A few months after you tried to kill yourself and they took me to see you in the hospital. If you remember the notes after you woke up they were mine'' Ashton chuckled and smiled, he remembered every single note in messy handwriting ''I never knew why until a few months later when you tried to do it again. I started to realise you finally came out as gay to your friends and they weren't so happy about it so they started to bullie you. I thought you were fine, you were so clean and happy, I just went to the hospital to see you again when you were sleeping because you looked so peaceful. Ash I-I felt like the most horrible person in the world because I wasn't there for you. I felt so bad and weak. You were and are my ball of sunshine, you'll always be. I may sound cheesy but it's the truth.

  I-I started to cut myself when they-they'' Luke could barely say anything he was chocking now because of crying. Ashton got up and sat beside him. He hugged the blond boy protectively, like he could do something to stop this sadness.

''You don't have to say the rest Lukey. I understand okay?'' Ashton whispered in the blonde's hair.

''I w-want to te-tell.'' Luke got off from Ashton and stared at him ''T-They told me you were dea-ad.''

(to be continued)

sorry i left you there i just wanted to leave it there :) :) :) :) :) :) bye