Lost Boy ➸ a.i.+l.h. ✔️

five.

dear journal,

i talked to the boy today, i really wanted to and i'm proud because i finally had some courage to do it. At first he didn't say anything, just stood there with his mouth open and i was feeling even more nervous due to my anxiety but he smiled and said 'hi' too

and let me tell you, his voice is so beautiful. Is the kind of voice you want to hear eveyday

we talked about a lot of stuff, i learned he has depression too but he didn't tell me the reason and i didn't want to ask to be rude. I saw him somewhere, i don't know where but i can feel it

his hair was in a quiff and he had some acne but he still looks beautiful

calum talked to me when ex-Jared went to his room to get some sleep because his medication made him feel tired, cal said the boy was ''nice but awkward but it doesn't matter since we are all awkward in here''

i found it funny, even if i don't think we are awkward in here, we were just struggling with our problems and now we have to fix ourselves even if it takes too long

his name is luke hemmings by the way, and i might have a little crush on him?

ps: lunch was horrible, it looked like pasta but at the same time it didn't so just pretended i was eating and then threw it in the bathrooms

pps: i used to have 39 kg and now i have 45...

love,

ash