Lost Boy ➸ a.i.+l.h. ✔️

twenty one.

I-I started to cut myself when they-they'' Luke could barely say anything he was chocking now because of crying. Ashton got up and sat beside him. He hugged the blond boy protectively, like he could do something to stop this sadness.

''You don't have to say the rest Lukey. I understand okay?'' Ashton whispered in the blonde's hair.

''I w-want to te-tell.'' Luke got off from Ashton and stared at him ''They told me you were dead.''

(now it will be the continuation of the last chapter okay?

not a new day

the same night)

3rd person

''Wh-what?'' Ashton asked, feeling confused, Him? Dead?

''Y-Yeah, dead.'' Luke looked down and Ashton interwined their fingers beucase he knew how much Luke loved it.

''Why would they say that?''

''I don't know I just-I started feeling so bad. You were missing for one week so I asked the reception lady if somebody saw you. She said she didn't know anything and I asked every employee until I went to the directory and asked for Ashton Irwin. Th-they told me you were dead. I remember starting to scream and had a panic attack b-because i couldn't live without you! I felt like it was m-my fault bec-cause I wasn't beside you. I was selfish. I started t-to cut deeper until I went to the hospital a lot of times. Your ex-friends started picking up on me because they saw m-my scars a-and discovered I was gay because I had your name on my wrist.'' He stared crying more hard and Ashton kissed his tears ''It was a dark time Ash, without seeing your cute dimples and beautiful face everyday. I th-thougth that if I cut deeper and deeper i would be able to see you again. They called me fat and worthless so i started to starve myself and loose weight by skipping meals and throwing up. They all hate me Ash, they all do.''

Ashton held Luke in his arms until the blond boy calmed down from crying, whispering sweet things and kissing his hair and forehead. They stayed there for a while just enjoying each other, Ashton sang some melodies on Luke's ear making both boys smile.

It was one AM when they went to they bedrooms but they stood on Ashton's door. In silence. Just enjoying the company of each other. Until Luke broke the silence.

''You know, I was avoiding you because I tought you were a product of my imagination. I missed you so much and maybe my mind started to play tricks with me. Mrs.Helk always said you were real and I started convincing myself of that just a few days ago. But... Ashton?''

''Yeah?''

''I'm glad you are real. And... I'm even more glad I'm able to have you in my arms right now.''

Ashton smiled like he never did, at least for the past few months ''Yeah'' he said ''me too''.

They two boys started to lean in until their lips touched each other. They could feel themselves melting into the kiss. Luke's arms were around Ashton's waist while Ashton's arms were around the blonde boy neck just making the kiss more deep. It was full of love (they could say it, that's what they felt for each other) and passion. Ashton felt like he could fly because this felt so good, and Luke felt realised because he wanted to do this since forever but didn't have balls to do it. They stopped the kiss because they needed air and mentally complained. Both boys opened their eyes at the same time, staring at each other like they could read the soul of each other.

Luke pecked Ashton's lips a few times ''Goodnight Irwie.''

Ashton smiled letting go off Luke ''Goodnight lost boy.'' and both boys got into their rooms.

Luke sighed with love, because he really loved being called a lost boy, especially when it's from his favourite person in the whole world.

Or can I say, universe?

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dear journal,

the date was fantastic, i know about everything now. Luke told me and he started crying so i held him in my arms.

WE KISSED and if felt so good and so right. His lips were soft and I hope he asks me to be his boyfriend soon

or maybe I do it? I don't know, I'm scared of rejection...

love,

ash

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i never had my first kiss but hey i tried