Second Chance With You

Chapter 26

(Christian P.O.V)

Sometimes life throws you curve balls, or challenges and you have to face them head on; but sometimes you are just to tired and don't want to face them. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and I unlocked my screen to read it.
Chase: hey how did you your appointment go?

I felt my throat swell and my eyes burning. Why did my life have to go to shit right now? Right at the moments where Chase and I finally had a chance with each other; to finally be together. My phone buzzed again and I looked down at my screen teary eyed and sighed.
Chase: christian?
Christian: leave me alone chase. Never text me again.

I turned my phone off and stepped onto the bus and waited to go home where I could finally cry in peace. I needed to call my mom I guess and let her know what happened before she worries herself again like she does every check-up; but right now I don't think I could handle the phone calls and text messages from Chase. I leaned my head againist the bus window and waited for the driver to get to my stop.

When I got to my stop I looked up at the sky. What in my life did I do so wrong that I was cursed with constant surgeries and medicines and fear of not waking up in the mornings? Didn't deserve a happy life? Or maybe I didn't deserve a life at all.

I slowly walked home with my head down and tears running down my face.

"Christian!" I heard my name called and looked up to see Chase leaning againist my door. Oh no. I can't do this right now.

"Chase go home." I said.

"Not until you tell me what is going on!" he said and walked up to me.
Please. Don't get close to me. Don't break my defences againist you. I thought to myself.

"Nothing is going on. I just don't want you here. I don't want to see you." I said in a monotone voice.

"You're lying." he said and put his hand under my chin and made me look up at him.

"When you lie you can't look at anyone in the face. So I will ask again. What's going on?" he said quietly. I felt my tears start to fall again and my knees become very weak.

"Nothing! Why can't you just fucking leave!" I scream and push him back and walked up to my door. I unlocked it and slammed it open and heard Chase follow me inside.

"Christian!" Chase yelled and I heard him close my door.

"Christian talk to me." Chase said behind me. I wrapped my arms around myself and began to cry. My chest started to spasm and my breathing became almost nonexistent. I fell to the floor on my knees and I heard Chase behind me follow my movements. He wrapped his arms around my waist and layed his head on my back.

"Christian. If you're waiting for me to leave you will be waiting a lifetime. What happened to you Christian?" Chase asked me. I leaned my body back againist his and he moved to where my body layed between his legs and my head was resting on his chest.

"It's happening again Chase. Everything. The surgeries. Medicine. Hospitals." I tell him.

"I can't do it Chase. I can't go through all of that again. It's to much." I say. His hold tightens on me and I feel his heart speed up againist my ears.

"Christian. I know, not personally, but I know it is a lot for you to handle. But you won't go through it alone. You have your mom, Sarah, and you have me. And Josh is only a phone call away. You have friends and people that love you here Christian. You can't just give up everything." he tells me. I feel his breathing stutter and I look up to see tears falling from his eyes.

"Why are you crying?" I ask him.

"Because. I am scared to Christian. I didn't know before. The cancer. The surgeries. But I do now. When I finally have you I have the chance of loosing you again. But now I have the chance of being with you this time; through it all with you I will be here. Holding your hand or wiping away your tears and distracting you from your worries." he says. I lean up on my knees and turn to face him.