Second Chance With You

Chapter 15

(Christian P.O.V)

Have you ever felt like you reached a milestone in something and everything has changed? That is how I feel with Chase. After that phone call and his openess with his family I feel closer to him. Like we over came something that was holding us back from reaching out and becoming true friends. All we need is more milestones to overcome and maybe we can become more. Every phone call and every text no matter what the topic is it feels more special more secure.

He seems more happy now that he told me and more comfortable around me. I feel closer to him to now that he told me that; like he trusts me.

I feel my phone vibrating on the cushion next to me and I groan leaning over to get. Well shit, the doctors office.

"Hello." I say.

"Hello Christian, this is Dr. Brown's nurse speaking and I just wanted to call and remind you of your appointment two weeks from today on the thirth. It will just be your regular cat scans over your head to confirm if the tumor is back and blood tests to confirm if  your cancer is still gone." she says to me.

"Yes I remember." I tell her.
"Okay. See you then. Goodbye." she says.

"Goodbye." I hang up and throw my phone back on the cushion.

I hate going to the doctors even if it is just once a year. It just always reminds me the bad times in my life and I prefer remembering the good. But I guess it also reminds me that I am a survivor. Being in remission for four years have been the best times in my life. To walk around knowing I am beating the usual unbeatable is amazing.

But there is always that chance. That percentage that hangs over you always reminding you that it could return and you would have to relive it all over again. My life will go back to hospitals and chemo and surgeries all over again and I don't think I can do that all over again. Four years of it was a long time and hard on me and my family. My mother was almost in debt and I have been working my ass off to help her and give her a comfortable lifestyle to repay her on what she gave up for me; no matter what she says or how much she protests I will always be grateful for what she's done for me.

She gave up so much so I will give back.

I lay down on the couch and let my mind wonder. From the time I was fourteen until I was eighteen I had the brain tumor which was cancerous. It all started with headaches here and there to migranes all the time. Migranes so bad that the slightest noise and light killed me. I went to the doctors for head examinations and discovered I had a golfball size tumor growing which turned cancerous. The doctors kept it under control with the chemo and constant head examines but fluid started to build and I had to have the surgery. So after years of no hair and my mom telling them to just go ahead with the surgery; which I didn't want to have, it was finally removed. Two weeks after my graduation the surgery was set up and I was finally cancer and tumor free. I now only have regular check ups and get paranoid if I have the slightest touch of a headache.

Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I hadn't of been sick. Would I have been more open to people? Have more friends? No Sarah and Josh were enough. Would Chase and I have been friends? Could we have formed a close friendship with each other? If so, maybe now we could have already known each other so well we wouldn't need to go through all the games and gaining trust and guessing all the time. It's driving me crazy not knowing everything or not knowing if he likes me or not and having to over think everything.

I just wish he would tell me something. Anything.