Second Chance With You

Chapter 9

(Chase P.O.V)

My mind was filled with thoughts of Christian. His laugh, his smile, his smart ass mouth, his personality, everything about him. He was just beautiful all the way around and being near him almost all day was killing me. I wanted to hold his hand and wrap my arms around his waist from behind to peck his cheek.

I just want him to notice me more than just a friend or past bully. The problem was was that I didn't know how to make that happen and it was eating me alive. I put my head in my hands and grabbed my hair.

"Are you okay boss?" I hear Jenna say from my door. I looked up and motioned her in and to close the door.

"How do you get someone to notice you?" I asked her. This is so embarrassing.

"A little cleavage and short skirts with no underwear always works." she says and laughs at her own joke. I glare daggers into her eyes and shake my head.

"I'm serious Jenna!" I say.

"Okay okay calm down. Whats going on? I've never seen you this tense unless it is over a business deal or your parents bull shit." she says and leans back into her chair.

"I have met someone. Well ran into someone I haven't seen since high school. He doesn't know that I am gay. I for sure know that he is gay because he doesn't try to hide it. I'm not hiding my sexual preferences from him but I don't want him to think that I am trying to trick him. And before you ask, he will think that because in high school I bullied him. I was a dick in high school because I was confused and didn't know who I was and between that and my dads drinking I was a very angry person. I was confused and I was very attracted to him and somewhere inbetween I fell in love with him. Now that I have met him again and were building a friendship I don't want to loose him. I want him Jenna." I finally finished my ramble and took a deep breathe and looked up at her. She just stared at me.

"Well say something!" I say kind of annoyed at her silence.

"Okay. For one this is going to be very difficult and stressful. He doesn't trust you yet for obvious reasons, which is understandable and you have to agree. Your off to a great start though. Building a friendship." she says. I sigh and put my face in my hands.

"Jenna! I want more than a friendship with him. We have already spent a day together and it was so hard to not stare at him or grab his hand or something!" I tell her. She laughs and puts her elbows on her knees.

"Chase you have to go slow! Hell he doesn't even know your gay! Baby steps. You've hung out once! Do you text each other or call?" she asks.

"We text all the time. I call him maybe once or twice a week." I say.

"Call more. Call every night. Get him talking Chase. Learn more about him. His favorite things. His likes his dislikes. What he looks for in a person. The basics Chase! You should know this stuff already! Did you not date in high school or college?" she asks me. I blushed and looked down.

"I never dated in high school. In college I just experimented. I never dated though because I was to focused on my school and being the best of the best." I say.

"Oh. Good thing you came to me then. Obviously when you call him and learn and ask questions on him he is going to ask them back. So he is learning more about you! Don't give just half ass answers either. Answer the question. Give a casual flirt here and there when y'all hang out but nothing to overly affectionate, you don't want to seem creepy. Pay for some of the things you do together so it seems like a date. Touch him sometimes. Like casually move his hair or place your hand at his lower back. Open doors for him. Just be the gentlemen you are. Your a great guy Chase! It will just be baby steps for you." she says. I nodded. She was right.

"Thank you Jenna. That helped a lot. I just needed someone to vent too." I say and smile at her.

"Anytime. I need to get back to work though. Keep me updated on the progress you make with him!" she says and stands to leave. I just shake my head and focus back on my own work.
*later*

When I make it back to my apartment I automatically check my phone. God I am acting like a teenage girl with her first crush.
Christian: are you coming to the bar?
Chase: no not tonight. I'm just going to watch some movies tonight and be lame.
Christian: lol that will be me in almost two hours. Gotta go!

I laughed at his message and put my phone in my sweat pants. Now what to do for two hours.

I settled on making coffee and sitting on my couch thinking about Christian; and different approaches I can do to make him like me. Straight forward was out of the question because I can't risk scaring him off. Jenna was right, baby steps. Tonight I will start with a phone call and continue that. I've called him before but why was I so nervous now?

"Probably because now it had a different meaning and motive Chase." I mumbled to myself.

Time passed quickly and I was debating on calling him now. What if he didn't want to talk to me? What if he is asleep?

What if.

I layed down on my bed and closed my eyes after hitting the call icon on my phone. It ranged three times before he answered.
"Hello?" I hear him say.

"Hello there. Whats up?" I say.
"Just got out of the shower. I smelt like alcohol because my favorite customer got pissed at me for rejecting him again." he says clearly irritated. I chuckle a little before I replied.

"He sounds lovely." I say.
"Oh just amazing. The highlight of my work nights. How was your day?" he asks me.

"Boring. Just building and land reviews and a bunch of paper signings." I say. Plus a plan to make you like me but he didn't need to know that yet.

"Why don't you like this customer back?" I ask him.
"Not my type. He takes home a different person every time I reject him. I am pretty sure he would fuck anything on two legs or one or even none. He probably has herpes or something." he says and we laugh.

"He just wants you to be another notch in his bed post." I say glad he doesn't like that prick. One less person to worry about.
"Probably. He will never get none of this though." he says. Good.

"Are you in a relationship?" I ask trying to sound casual. My heart was pounding though.
"No I am not. Single as dirt." he says. Oh thank goodness.
"What about you?" he asks.

"I'm single. No one has caught my eyes just yet." I kind of lie. I didn't want him asking questions about my crush if I say I had one.
"Well thats to bad. Were going to be old and wrinkly and single soon." he says and laughs.

"I hope not." I say and laugh. I hope it won't take that long for him to like me or even maybe love me. That would drive me crazy.
"I would like to find my true love before I loose my good looks." he says.

"Good looks?" I joked.
"Shut up!" he says and we both laugh. We fall in a comfortable silence. The only sound I heard was his breathing. My eyes started to feel heavy and I finally spoke.

"I am about to fall asleep over here." I say.
"Me too. We should go to sleep. Have your sweet dream Chase. Tell me about it?" he asks.

"Now that would be telling. Sweet dreams Christian." I say.

"Your so frustrating." he groans.

"Goodnight Christian." I say and hang up.

I set my phone down on my bedside table and roll over onto my stomach. I close my eyes and smile.

Christian is single. I have a chance.