Second Chance With You

Chapter 19

(Chase P.O.V)

I sit at my desk in my office wracking my brains out about the other night at the bar. The only thing I really remember was inviting Christian to have a few drinks with me and flashes of dancing buzz through my brain but nothing else. What the hell happened? I wonder if Christian remembers anything.

We have the sleepover this weekend maybe I can ask him them but what if something happened that we don't need to remember? I mean if anything did happen we can always blame the alcohol right?

I need to get my shit together and just at least tell him I am gay. There is nothing wrong with being gay and being friends with another gay. Maybe if I do we can progress a little in our relationship and maybe become something more. If I tell him I am gay it will at least be one less secret between us. But am I ready to tell him? This will be a big thing for me but I really don't know if I am ready to tell him.

I put my head in my hands and groan.

"Chase?" Jenna says from the door. I look up at her and motion her to come in.

"Whats wrong?" she asks me.

"I don't know. I got drunk the other night at the bar with Christian and I woke up the next morning and I can't remember shit Jenna. Nothing. Not even how the hell I got home." I say to her. She crosses her legs and stares at me.

"Chase are you sure?" she asks me.

"I just remember asking him to have a few drinks with me and flashes of dancing bodies." I say to her.

"Did yall dance?" she asks me.

I close my eyes and press my fingers to my eyes. Flashes of Christian dancing amd hands running over his body flash behind my eye lids and become blurry again.
"Might get someones hope up..." I hear and then it goes black again. I groan in frustration and press harder againist my eyes.

Nothing. I can't remember.

"Just flashes Jenna. I can't remember." I say to her.

"Damn it Chase. Not any progress. None. You might as well just be friends forever." she says and sighs.

"Oh thanks Jenna. Thanks for the confidence." I say sarcastically. I roll my eyes and lean back in my chair.

"It's not like I haven't tried. I have. I wasn't expecting to get so drunk we didn't remember shit." I tell her. She leans forward and sighs.

"I know Chase. I'm sorry I didn't mean to be rude. I'm just frustrated for you. I know you want this badly." she says.

"Yes I do. Now I feel like I am back at the beginning but maybe not. Were having a sleep over at his place this weekend." I tell her.

"Oh my gosh!" she exclaims and smiles.

"I am debating on whether or not I should tell him I am gay. I thought maybe it would help move things a long a little but I'm scared Jen. Telling you was hard but this will be harder. I love him Jen. I don't want to loose him. I've only come to terms with myself a few years ago. Years may seem like an enternity for some but for me it seems like yesterday." I say to her and look down at my desk.

We were silent for a moment before I feel her arms wrap akwardly around my waist. I lean up from my chair and hug her back tightly.

"I understand Chase. Take your time. Like we said before. The puzzle will come together and everything will fit into place. He has to like you Chase. What's not to like?" she says and smiles.

"Yeah. I need to get back to work on these plans." I say to her. She nods her head and leaves.

I work endlessly for hours until it is all finished and sent away to the builders for them to analyze and begin the process of building this amazing hotel. I lean back in my office chair and place my hands behind my head and close my eyes.

I wish I could remember. Just any little thing would suite me just fine; but I can't and it was driving me insane. That one night had me feeling like I was back at square one with him and I didn't like it. Now; more than ever, I was determined to move forward with him. I was determined to take three steps forward and no steps back with him.
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