Shatter Me (18+ Only)

Chapter 27

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Willow's POV:

 Fallon looked at me, suspicion clear in his eyes as he maintained steady eye contact with me. This little bastard was trying to read my mind, trying to figure out why I looked so disheveled, wearing one of Romen's dress shirts, no pants, with my face flushed with embarrassment. 

   I mean, he doesn't have to be a mind reader to comprehend what probably just happened between Romen and I.

   "Willow..." He glared at me. His watery grey eyes narrowing down at me as realization suddenly dawned on him.

    "Okay, I know what you're thinking. But no, it's not like that, it's really not, okay? I'm just having some fun before..."

   His eyes grew soft, taking another step towards me, "Before what, Willow?"

    I felt a small bubble of anxiety fill my veins. It was weird. I didn't get anxious, I didn't get scared. I chose not to feel those things because pretending like they didn't exist was so much better than facing them. 

   I shook my head at him, refusing to tell him, or even to think about it, so he couldn't figure it out on his own.

    He raked a hand through his black and white hair, giving me a sad smile.

    "You can tell me, you know? I know you think you don't have any friends here. But I'm your friend." He said softly.

   I rocked on my heels, "Well, when were you going to tell me you were fucking Rose?"

   He glared at me, "Not the point. We can talk about anything or everything, if you want to?" He extended his hand towards his room at the end of the hall.

   I paused. I didn't want him to know what was happening, because I had the inkling he would tell somebody. I didn't want anyone to know. I didn't want anyone trying to stop me. I wanted to live the next days to the fullest, without the hinderance of feelings or guilt. I wanted to do the things I was never able to do.

    I have endured the worst parts of my life alone. I've been alone my entire life. Without a family, without a mother, without true friends. And that was something I had accepted. I lived my life alone, and even though Draven wouldn't kill me, once I went with him, I knew that was like death itself. I have endured my whole life alone, and I intended to die that way too. 

    I have extreme abandonment issues, and it doesn't take a genuis to see that about me. I never knew my father, and my own mother refused to awknowledge my presence. I didn't have any true friends growing up. And even now...I'm surrounded by people I could see myself learning to love and care about. But I refused that reality, because I knew I could only disappoint. 

    Why open yourself to love when you know...in the end they'll just forget about you like everyone else.

    I refused to take anyone down on the ship that started sinking the day I was born.

   I looked up at Fallon, and saw how sad his face was, and it dawned on me...he knew everything I was thinking. And even though I hadn't said a word, the look on his face said that he had heard enough.