WHY

Falling Apart

Y/B/N: Your Brother's Name

Y/N: Your Name

Y/F/N: Your First Name

Y/L/N: Your Last Name

As Jensen drove the truck with Y/N, he couldn't help but notice how quiet she been, which was rare of. "I remember when you were little, you would beg for me to turn on the music all the time so you can sing and dance to it in the back seat all the time" Jensen said trying to break the silence. "I didn't beg you" You said, "I begged mom, you always prefer peace and quiet while you were driving and I wasn't dancing, Y/B/N was". You said while you started texting on your phone, "You know, I'm trying, I really am, can you just meet me half way here?" Jensen said looking at you during a red light, you continued to ignore him while he drove and talked to you, "Trying right?" "Says the one who kicked me out last night and lied to the social worker about me being there" You said in a calm voice. "It would be trying if you bothered to visit or call during the years you were gone, but whatever right?" "You were busy living your dream with a new family while me and Y/B/N were living with mom and trying to get by without you." "So yeah I'm done trying with you when it's convenient for you" You said, Jensen couldn't believe what he was hearing from you, before Jensen could respond he had arrived at the Brewery, you had bolted into the brewery to check it out. You didn't tell Jensen about the fact that you were considering using the brewery as a location for your music video of Carry On Wayward Son, there was so many locations that you and your team wanted to hit but this was one of the location, the only thing was you were going to have trouble explaining how you managed to get the location on video to some your members. As you walked around, you saw more pictures of the family at the brewery, there was no pictures of you and Y/B/N and it broke your heart.

You always knew Jensen didn't like being your dad but it was even harder believing it, you watched as Jensen went straight into business mode with the brewery and you couldn't help but notice where your business side came from. Your mom didn't want you to venture into YouTube when it came to your singing, mainly because she knew how much fame could destroy a person. She saw it first hand with Jensen, she told you how she knew Jensen before he became big and made a ton of money and forgot all about her and the family they built, so she didn't want it happening to you from such a young age.

"Dude!" You never told me your daughter is the "Y/F/N Y/L/N, the youngest singer to ever fast track herself on YouTube" Gino whisper slash shouted to Jensen. "What are you talking about?" Jensen asked Gino, he was so confused as to why you were so popular among his coworkers and why you had so much fans for just a channel on singing songs. "I can't believe you don't know, Y/N literally started her singing career on YouTube at like age 10 with her brother, but when her mom died, she formed her own band with the Foster System and they literally record songs together no matter the distance and how late it is" Gino said, Gino and everybody in Jensen, Supernatural family knew about the affair and knew about Jensen kids from his previous family, but they forgot that over time the kids grew and became their own person. "So you're saying, my daughter is YouTube famous?" Jensen asked to clarify. "'Not just YouTube, she famous on American Idol, the voice, everything." "It's like this, imagine her on Supernatural and just starting out, it was supposed to be a side hobby, but the fans started asking for her more and more and she just grew." "Now it's like, people want her everywhere, they want her on TV, award & sport shows!" "She's also not just a singer, she really does her own makeup, comedy and mostly important, she's not afraid to be real with her fans" Gino told Jensen.

As you continue to move around the brewery, you started singing your own songs to test out the pitch of the brewery, you didn't realize as you sang, your dad was listening in.
"I'm falling apart and it feels like your not here to catch me" "I'm drowning everyday in this pain and I don't know how to deal with it, and it feels like it's getting deeper and deeper and you're not there to get me out" "I'm falling apart, and you left me to catch the pieces..." You stopped singing when you heard a commotion, you knew who it was and didn't want to face the reality of Jensen acting like you were talented, worth it or overall changed. As you traced your steps back to where you last saw Jensen, and you couldn't believe your eyes as you watched Jensen pretend to be interested in his business.

Jensen and you were heading back to the house when you got a text from one of your friends, it was really hard trusting your friends with your secret, but when you found out that Tessa and Y/BF/N were the most unbiased in your group, it was easy to trust them with your secret but most importantly, they made a point to not tell anybody and always trust you to handle your secret.

The Q & A were no longer going to be your favorite after tonight, you couldn't believe your eyes, when you read Bryce and everybody messages, you knew you weren't going to forgave yourself for what you were going to asked Jensen and most importantly, you didn't want to lie to your friends even more and it was time for you to tell the truth.