Be Still My Beating Heart ♡

Heartwrenched

Author's note: thank you so much for clicking on my story it means so much to me. i decided to start this chapter today, because i actually broke my ankle this morning whilst at dance :( and i can't go outside which is really sad, but instead i'm typing my first chapter out whilst listening to the glee quarterback soundtrack and listening to hand in my pocket the glee version on repeat because who wouldn't want to do that haha? Anyway, enjoy this chapter where Brittany and Santana find out some sad news and have to consider other options! happy reading my lovlies!     -Clemmie xxx

Chapter one

Brittany Lopeirce, point of view

My heart was beating faster than I had ever felt it beat before. My hands were shaking in fear. Santana was sitting in the chair next to me, and she cupped my shaking hands in hers and held them safe. I looked up at her unable to speak.

"Hey Britt, it's okay. Everything is going to be okay" she soothed kissing the top of my head.

"You don't know that Santana. The thing we have always feared is about to come through the door, and I don't think I can cope with it if it comes to it" I said, tears brimming in my bright blue eyes. Santana pulled me closer to her chair and wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Brittany listen to me. whatever we are told today, hey look at me. Whatever we are told today Brittany, there will be other pathways we can follow. I promise we will figure this out" Santana smiled desperately trying to keep it together for my sake, and I felt so awful for it.

"santana, sweetie, it's okay to be scared. it's okay to feel like whatever the doctor tells us today will change the course of our life as we know it and make everything we worked for that much harder.'' I replied, tucking my chair under the doctors desk. the ticking of the clock seemed to echo all around the room. it may have just been the tense energy in the room.

The silence was broken when the door was opened abruptly. I was nestled in Santana's shouler and her head rested on mine and she was stroking my thick, long blonde hair. when the door opened, we both jolted up and sat facing the desk in anticipation. it was doctor Lill
y Williamson.

"sorry for the wait ladies, i just had to double check your records." she said breathlessly as she sat down at her desk in front of us. santana squeezed my frozen hand under the table, but I still felt a sense of impending doom.

"okay so the test results you wanted came back after I saw you last" doctor williamson started, "santana came back negative last time and you were here, and you wanted to know if Brittany was fertile, is that right?" she asked looking through her papers.

"yes that is correct doctor" santana replied "do you have the result?" she asked, gulping and clutching my hand, and I squeezed it back.

"it's just coming through" she said checking her computer "it will be here any minute now"

think positive thought britt, positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts-

"i have your results!" doctor williamson said smiling and opening a folder on her computer as santana and i sat in silence squeezing each others hands.

"Brittany your result is- I'm so sorry britt. your result came back negative. the test shows that there is an extremely unlikely chance that you will ever have children naturally."

silence.

I could just hear ringing in my ears. I was such a let down. Santana only couldn't have children because she had a procedure as a child that left her unable to have children. Why me?