Dear Me

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Hanggang sa huling subject ay iniwasan ko ang mga mata ng kahit na sino. Nasa labas lang ang tingin ko o kaya'y sa langit, sa kamay, sa bag, o kahit sa sapatos. Nahihiya ako kahit wala naman dapat ikahiya.

Sa tuwing nasa harapan ang tingin ko ay nararamdaman ko ang pagbaling ng tingin ni Gerard sa gawi ko. Sa huli, ako pa ang iiwas ng tingin.

Noong natapos ang klase ay tinawag lahat ni Abby ang mga ka-grupo niya at isa na ako roon. Nahati ang klase sa dalawang grupo. We're 30 in total so we have 15 members per group. It's too many for my bad memory so I never got the chance to memorize the people I'll be working with. Ngayon ko lang nalaman kung sino-sino at sumasang-ayon ako sa kasabihan na ignorance is a bliss.

Ka-grupo ko si Diva tapos ka-grupo ko rin si Gerard. I have no problem with the members actually but after doing some dangerous stunt like putting some food on someone's bag for an example was enough to put me on the end of a cliff and only left thing to do is to jump on my own because it was a suicide. Didn't think that helping someone a bit can be this life-threatening.

Abby just discussed some things na kakailanganin namin gawin o kailangan pag-usapan at pagdesisyunan ng buong grupo. We talked about the place, the props that we'll possibly using after completing the whole plan about the story.

I was secretly observing everyone while Abby was talking. Everyone was serious and paying attention to her. I arched a brow when I realize how the teamwork was starting. I was not sure if these people were all cooperative or it's all because of Abby's talent in leadership.

After months of seating here as one of this class, I stopped wondering why the election for the class' president didn't get in the process of nomination and voting. Everyone was in chorus and she was elected once again as their President from the unanimous decision. I saw how she leads the class like it's a pack of wolves. She might not be the brightest among all but she's seriously born to be a leader. I am now one of her underwings.

"Is everyone okay by the final decision?" everyone was exchanging glances but no one spoke.

"If you have something to say then speak up. Don't think and feel embarrassed because you oppose some decisions. Being different doesn't mean that you're wrong. It only proves that everyone has their own views and opinions. So..." she looked at us again and patiently waited to someone to speak but it didn't come. She clasped her hands.

"I believe everything is settled. I'll update you with the details tomorrow. Let's call it a day. Pahinga na tayo lahat. Bye, everyone!"

Kinuha ko ang bag na pansamantala kong nilapag sa isang upuan habang nagm-meeting kami kanina. When I turned my back to leave the room, Gerard blocked my view. I blinked twice and tried to put myself together. When I felt that my adrenaline wouldn't betray me this time, I confidently arched my brows to ask why.

"Uh..." napakamot ako ng ulo nang hindi siya umimik.

He didn't say anything hanggang sa tinawag ang pangalan niya. I looked over his shoulder and saw it was Jojo with friends.