Vikk struggled with understanding normal society as it was and that made it even harder for him to understand why a baby is a bad thing. Babies were cute and funny. They were innocent.
He sits and ponders the pros and cons that any normal person would come up with for why killing a baby is a good thing. This only seems to muddle up his thoughts and cause a problem with editing that he only realises when he finishes editing an episode of what he thought was GTA but turns out to be a mixture of both Trials and Minecraft Parkour somehow moulded into an incoherent mess of a video. He is convinced he's gone insane.
After giving up on editing, he decides to go for a run. Five am seemed a perfectly normal time to go and surprisingly he sees a few people out and about whilst running down side streets and alleyways. He managed to clear his head substantially and was proud of himself for doing such a simple task as running a couple miles. It was the small things that mattered to Vikk most because he understood them. He understood that running was good for your health. If anything, Vikk's favourite thing was understanding because the feeling of pride that swelled in his chest when he understood something was a feeling next to none, which is why, in his school days, he took revising and studying seriously because getting good results on a test or exam meant that he understood the subject. The down side to this was that he normally excelled past other students and proved to himself that he still didn't understand the puzzle that is society. Society frustrated him to no end and there is only one thing that frustrates him more than society and that is being frustrated. He found frustration tedious and pointless but also uncontrollable. He did not like it one bit. He liked being in control and any form of emotion was a sign that he wasn't so he blocked it out and tried not to feel. Sometimes he let his guard down though. Sometimes.
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The undeniable stench of self pity radiating from Freya's bedroom made Rosie feel sick.
She had no idea what was poisoning the usually clean oasis that Josh and Freya inhabited but she knew when to leave her best friend alone. She also knew when enough was enough.
She bursts into Freya's room and yells at her to get up and get dressed, claiming the a shopping trip was needed to cure, what she was suspected was, a broken heart.
"Piss off. I hate shopping." Freya groans through her pillow as she tries to sleep and Rosie must admit that eight am could be a little early. She didn't think though, actually, she rarely thought before she did. It wasn't her style. Spontaneity was, in fact, her style.
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Freya didn't normally mind not being around Josh, though she did find her time more enjoyed when he was there, but the fact that she knew she couldn't see him was what got to her. She tried mercilessly, over and over to come up with bad things about Josh that eased the pain but the only one that came to mind was the obvious one that she killed their child and looking at his face made her feel guilty. Something that wasn't his fault.
Eventually, after a long time of thinking, all she had come up with was that Josh was like a box of your favourite cupcakes or unexpectedly finding a pound coin in your trousers pocket or your favourite flavour of ice cream on a hot summers day or a warm, toasty blanket when it's cold outside. But, sometimes, you drop those cupcakes or the pound isn't enough to buy a bottle of coke and the ice cream melts and makes you all sticky or you get too warm under the blanket. All extremely unfortunate, but great things come at a cost. Sadly, you can't buy great things with the pound coin you find in your pocket.
"Will you wipe the fucking frown off your face and concentrate on helping Adri." Rosie fumes, her anger see through and fake. Freya hadn't been paying attention to any of the shopping trip. She absolutely despised shopping and didn't even know why Adriana was there or why she needed help. Not to be cruel but Adriana wasn't really a close friend of theirs and people like her weren't normally accepted into their pity trips but for some reason Rosie had thought it would be nice for her to tag along. Adriana seemed nice, Freya just wasn't as comfortable around her than she was her other friends and, frankly, would rather have JJ following her around.
"What? Why does she need help?" She asks, seeming like she just woke up and deep down inside she wishes she had and that the last few months were all a dream or, simply, just so she could have gotten those few extra hours sleep.
"For her date! Duh, you seriously need to just start and forget about whose his wotsit." Rosie whines and Freya can't help but link her to all the stuck up bitches in every cheesy American movie ever.
"Josh, Rosie, he isn't Voldemort. You can say his name and I don't want to forget about the last four years of my life, thank you." She clarifies, "Who are you going on a date with?" She turns to Adriana just in time to see a blush creep it's way onto her cheeks. Freya smiles, remembering how Josh used to do that to her in the beginning. He probably still could.
"Harry." She says, her smile seemingly bigger than her whole face.
She was shocked, to say the least. Freya was absolutely certain that the last time she talked to Harry that he wouldn't stop going on about his girlfriend back in Guernsey. That was about a month ago though and she had been able to tell that they weren't serious. Harry had a small glint in his eye that said, 'It was a one night stand gone too far." and it was then that she realised that he wasn't committed and had just been dragged into it by her and his inability to directly tell someone how he feels out of fear of hurting them. She knew that Harry had hurt many girls through his stupidity. He always waited to long to tell them that whatever was happening wasn't really what he wanted and a little part of Freya hoped that Adriana wouldn't be knew of those girls because a) it would cause serious tension between Harry and Ethan and b) Adriana was maybe a little nicer than Freya first thought.
"Oh, that's nice."
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I'm just going to warn you now that Chapter 16 is terrible... it's important but I used as an excuse to let out all my lyrical frustration because I have so many lyrics from songs that re perfect for FROSH and I just needed to get them out so that's what I did. It's a sad excuse for a chapter...
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Chapter 15 sneak peek -
‘They had organised to go to the cinema to see fifty shades of grey. It was a joke, of course, but also a slight challenge to see who could last the longest without having to leave. They were both excited, to say the least.'
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