The chapter of realisation...
Josh flopped into one of the barstools in the kitchen and throws his head into his hands.
"Do you know how stupid you are?" He hears Tobi's voice as he walks into the kitchen. He groans.
"Yes, of course I fucking do!" He bites back glaring up at Tobi. Tobi lifts his hands in surrender, not wanting to argue with Josh. No-one should ever want to argue with Josh
"Calm down, mate. I was just saying. Did you even ask Freya how she felt about this? It's her body and I'm pretty sure if you talked it out that you would both come to the same conclusion."
Tobi had been talking to Freya for the past hour, her explaining everything from her missing period to her stomach cramps and general ill feeling for the past couple weeks. He had listened intently to it all, and, surprisingly, wasn't surprised about the cause of the argument as it had seemed pretty serious and serious with those two was really serious.
"I don't know, man. I just needed someone to blame and she was there so I blamed her. Where is she? I need to talk to her." Josh declares standing from his seat at the island. Tobi smiles, his work was done here.
"She's in the spare room."
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"Frey, can I come in?" He keeps his voice low and quiet to reassure ever that he isn't a threat and he is pretty certain that Simon is asleep in his room across the little landing.
"No." She calls back stubbornly. She loves Josh but in the moment, she has never felt more hate for him.
"Frey, please. I wasn't thinking, I didn't mean any of it. I'm sorry." He pleads, knowing inside that he isn't getting anywhere.
"Just leave me alone, Josh. I don't want to talk to you right now."
His face falls as he sulks his way to his room and collapses on his bed, deciding now is a perfect time to take a nap.
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Freya sneaks out of the house just a couple minutes after Josh leaves her alone. She isn't mad at him anymore, but just because she isn't mad, it doesn't mean she forgives him and the thought of having to look him in the eye and pretend that he is one of her favourite people makes her feel sick. Only once has she felt like this towards him and that was when he moved in with the guys. She wasn't angry, because he was just making a move to better and further his career that he happened to love but it made her doubt whether he really loved her. They had been together for just over three years at that time and she felt as if they were ready to move in together but instead he chose YouTube and his 'squad' over her and she was upset about it. Just like any person would be but she quickly got over it, realising that she couldn't spend more than two days without talking to him and so she left it behind and moved on. And, deep down, she knew that she wouldn't be able to stay away for long this time either. For one, they had to talk about this and sort it out because a baby isn't really something you can brush under a carpet and forget about and the conclusion they did come to would surely affect the rest of their lives. Whether they would have a baby to look after or not, they will have still had a baby by the end of it and they wouldn't forget that. If they chose to abort it, they would still remember when they have a child with each other, or their different partners, that this one was their first. In a way, Freya saw it as a good thing because it gave her and Josh a link that would still be there if they split up and find other people. It meant that they were connected forever and that in any kids Freya had in the future she would see Josh and always remember her first love but she didn't like to think like that. She wanted Josh to be her first and last love. She didn't want anyone else because she was too fond of the way he held her, of the way they clicked together, of the way she was always his first choice and the way they had stuck by each other through thick and thin. It was in moments like this that Freya realised how madly and deeply in love with the man she was and it was also moments like this that she didn't want to be in love with him, she wanted to hate him. She wanted to be able to walk away and not go back but running away doesn't answer anything and with that she is turning around and walking back to the bus stop as she curses Josh for being so damn lovable.
She doesn't bother knocking, she just walks in and waltzes up the stairs.
Walking into Josh's room, she sees him curled up and asleep in his bed and the sight makes her sleepy so she lays down next to him, wrapping her arms around him and laying her head on his back. She smiles at his warmth as she drops off to sleep.
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"How's things with you and Ethan?" Cal asks Simon whilst in the middle of a friendly FIFA game. Simon looks at him weirdly and takes a shot, groaning when he misses.
"What sort of question is that? There isn't anything with me and Ethan." Simon defends, momentarily forgetting his confession to Cal a while back.
"Ethan and me." Cal corrects, a smirk inset on his face, "And there is, I know a lie when I see one. While everyone has been going about their normal lives, you and Ethan have been getting all comfy and snuggly. Don't deny it because it's true and don't think I'm the only person that's noticed."
Simon is speechless, so speechless that he stops playing the game entirely. He doesn't even want to argue with him.
"Is it obvious?" He asks, a slight blush rising on his cheeks at the thought of Ethan and him having a not-so-hidden hidden relationship.
"No, Rosie pointed out all the little things to me… and she does psychology and stuff." Simon breathes a sigh of relief before panic sets in again.
"Please don't tell anyone, Ethan's scared shitless about what people will think and I promised that no-one would find out until he's ready." Simon doesn't take a single breathe as he begs, and is slightly panting by the end
"Dude, I'm your guy's' friend. I wouldn't ever do anything like that. Never."
"Thanks, man. That means so much, it really does."
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This chapter was really fun to write because I enjoy writing big paragraphs. The large one of Freya's realisation is literally half of this chapter XD
I'm gonna start setting goals for chapters... if this chapter gets 5 votes then you can have the next chapter!!!
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