fatal love // monsta x

14. Innocent Thrills Pt. 3

"If you wanted to kiss me you could have just asked..." Minhyuk said looking at me straight in the eyes with a smirk.

"YOU-" I hurled my fist into his shoulder. 

"AH! WHY ARE YOU HITTING ME!?" He shouted in a whine.

"Don't tease at a time like this! I'm bleeding out and you're thirsty. It only makes sense! If I go out there still bleeding, it's just going to make you, Hyungwon, and Kihyun uncomfortable the whole time." I reasoned.

Minhyuk blinked and his expression fell downcast, "No." He mumbled.

"What?" I said in a breathy voice.

He met my eyes, "I said no. That defeats the purpose of me trying to wean off of human blood for you. I want to be better for you," He bit his lip, almost to hold back his words, "You don't know how hard it is to hold back... Ever since that night, I've wanted to drink your blood with almost every moment. It's like nothing I've ever tasted before; it's like the sweetest nectar that makes me feel warm and safe. For a second, it felt like the world fell away and it was just you and me, but it was at the cost of your safety. When I think about that, it makes me feel repulsive and despicable." That familiar pain rooted in his eyes was as clear as day. I could see his confliction.

"Minhyuk, I never asked you to do that. You assume that's what I want, but I just want you to be happy and not loathe yourself. I know you're also afraid of letting down the members, but your happiness comes first and they don't decide what's best for you, it's up to you."

I looked at him with a brave face, attempting to waver his fear of hurting me. I know he has the strength not to, if he is willing to go such great lengths to keep himself restrained.

"But what if I hurt you-"

"You won't. It's me, and I know you'd never do anything to hurt me." I gave him a sincere smile. 

His eyes softened, a sentimental emotion coming from them.

"You know, this isn't how I was expecting our first kiss to go..." His words trailed off.

My cheeks finally gave in and flared bright red and warm, "Oh my god- Stop saying it like that before I take it back!"

He gave a laugh, reaching a hand to one of my ears, his fingers slipping behind it, "Your ears are red, are you that flustered?" His lips curled into a sly smirk.

"No! Maybe... I don't know I-" I stopped my blabbering when I noticed his hand moving to cradle the back of my head. His face moving closer to mine, I tensed. My back was straight and my arms gripping the bench, but I let my face relax. Our eyes fell as we were so close to feel our breath on each others lips. It was if he was breathing in the smell of my blood, before I closed the distance between us.

Time seemingly stopped when our lips met. Minhyuk didn't even give a reaction to the blood on my lips. He savored the kiss instead, melting into me with slow movements. While his lips weren't warm, they were soft and inviting. A wave of warmth spread through my body, as if I was set alight. At the contact, I felt my heart almost burst at the rate my heart was beating against my chest. This, this right now, felt like everything I never knew I needed. 

The warmth relaxed my body and it itched to be closer to him. My hands found themselves on his shoulders, my fingers sliding over his shirt. His other hand reached to my cheek, gently holding it to deepen the kiss.

As my lips parted to take a breath, I felt his tongue ghost over my bleeding lower lip. I flinched at the sudden feeling, but I knew he had to clean up the blood somehow. Seeing my reaction, he eased into using his tongue more and more, but never going past my lips. His gentle composure struggled to stay as he enjoyed my blood, his movements becoming desperate and fervent. He would only allow a quick and throaty breath before melting into me again. His breath was shaky, warm, and almost hypnotic as it sucked me in.