A part of me feels dispassionate about anything except dog on myself, and engage in self-sabotage.
Even though I know it's a temporary feeling, like everything else, hard work doesn't taste good in these moments.
We are told to not force anything but if we didn't, then nothing would get done. We would always push the next task into the far future where it will never reach our Now.
I find it difficult to see the bigger picture when my emotions are so present in the "I don't wanna" stage
In times like today, a part of me wants to be a loser. Fuck everything!
Why?
It would be easier to not care about anything.
If this is showing up I know for a fact it's not the first time. These patterns have been here long before I cultivated awareness, working in the shadows to dismantle whatever self-progress I have made.
I purposefully choose to feel this so that it can fuel my writing. This is my favorite type of release. Do I want to keep doing it? No, I see the talent I possess and it could be used more wisely if I fueled it differently.
What else does this voice want? I want to stop being afraid. Moving from fear to love is a weapon.
Is this a form of escape or confrontation?
I feel like an emotional masochist.
I won't always get the answers I'm looking for and I am okay with that. I'll just flow like water.
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Poetry - Raw Feelings
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