Canvas - Z.M

Chapter 38

See anybody could be good to you, you need a bad girl to blow your mind - Ariana Grande.

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ZAYNS POV

Don't see her again.

Don't see her again.

Four words. Just four words that are circling my head as she approaches me.

I can't exactly stop seeing her.

Then don't talk to her.

I want to stop and push my thoughts away but it almost immediately it soon vanishes when Candice says something. I frown, too busy in my head to register what she just said.

"What?" I narrow my gaze at her as if it's a way of seeing clearer.

Candice smiles, blue eyes on full vibrancy than usual. "I said happy New Years."

"Oh." I frown and look down then at Lorena, only to realise she wasn't next to me.

What the fuck?!

"Why aren't you answering my calls?" Candice questions, standing too close to make any on looker think anything more than just friends.

"I can't talk to you." I murmur. My eyes are too busy searching around the courtyard, to find that Lorena isn't here.

"You're talking to me now aren't you?" Candice says. "Who are you looking for?" She asks, obviously annoyed that my attention isn't on her.

"Lorena." I scowl.

Candice rolls her eyes as I finally look at her. "I thought you would have dumped her by now."

I frown. "What?"

"You just seem so interested in everything else." Candice folds her arms and shrugs. "I mean how many times have we hung out before I kissed you? I kind of have a feeling that you liked it more than you make -"

"Fuck off-"

"Oh come on Zayn. She wouldn't be too happy if she finds out we've been hanging out. She'd obviously take it the wrong way and leave you, maybe then we can be together again without you feeling so much guilt all the time when we hang out. Just send her out already." Candice says exasperated.

"You're delusional." I scowl.

"Says the one who chooses their ex over their girlfriend." Candice bites back.

"I love her, Candice. I've told you that-"

"And I still don't believe you. You say it, but your eyes say something different. Poor girl." She smiles as I glare at her. "You have no argument because it's the truth."

"Mate, everything all good out here?" I feel a hand on my shoulder before I see Louis from beside.

He grips into my arm and looks at me.

"Hey Louis." Candice smiles. "Happy new year."

"Yeah, back at you. Zayn, mate, can I talk to you?" Louis questions and I shrug his hand off before walking away from Candice and make my way over to a quiet corner.

Louis follows behind and sighs annoyed as he takes out his cigarette pack.

"So Lorena's gone." Louis says as he lights a cigarette between his lips. "Any idea why?"

"No." I close my eyes and sigh.

"What are you guys fighting for?" Louis questions.

My fists fall into balls. "Why do you have to know everything?!"