Canvas - Z.M

Chapter 10

This is a modern fairytale. No happy endings. No wind in our sails. But I can't imagine a life without breathless moments. Breaking me down -Selena Gomez

Zayns POV

"Louis, just stop!" Liam scowls before turning to face Jace.

Louis frowns. "Oh Liam. Liam, Liam, Liam. How could you speak to me in such rudeness my dear lad-"

Jace sighs and turns to me. "We'll take a break. Niall is in his own world and Louis has an attention span worse than a dog." He frowns when he notices my morbid expression.

"You okay mate?"

"Fine." I shrug before digging into my pocket for the pack of cigarettes. "I'll be back."

"Hey, Zayn man!" Louis follows beside me. "You keen?" He raises a suspicious eyebrow.

I nod and pull what looks to be somewhat of a smile.

"Round the back." I lead the way as Louis chuckles in hysterics. "Gis' us the lighter?" I offer my hand and Louis places the lighter in my hand as we walk out of the building.

Sitting against the wall, Louis sits beside me as I grab the bag out of my pocket with the papers.

"Can you roll, my hands are cramping." I murmur.

Louis narrows his gaze at me. "I wonder why?"

"Shut up man!" I scowl annoyed before leaning my head against the wall

Louis clears his throat. "Have you heard from her-"

"No." I cut him off before closing my eyes.

"Do you miss-"

"Louis."

"Do you want her ba-"

"I came out here for a smoke. Not for a fucking therapy session."

"Okay okay, chill man." Louis shoves me away before holding the joint. "You wanna start, you look like you need it."

I sit up straight before sighing to myself. "You can."

I hear the flick of the lighter, but a moment passes. I can't smell anything and I look at Louis who's staring at me. "What?!"

"Why are you being such a dick?" Louis frowns.

"I'm not?"

"Three years." Louis says before finally lighting the joint up between his lips. He takes a hit and hands it over. "You're seriously just going to give up."

I glare at him. "Whatever." I take a drag and close my eyes as I take another before Louis takes it off me.

"You always act like you don't care." Louis says.

"Maybe because I don't."

Louis sighs annoyed. "Mate, Last night you were a mess. And now you're acting like everything is fine."

I am fine. 

"Everything is fine. She left, she made her decision. It's over."

He looks at me annoyed. "Well, what are you going to do if you see her with another guy."

My hands instinctively falls into fists and Louis notices.

"See you do care, in a fucked up way." Louis sais.

The conversation momentarily becomes silent as Louis hands the joint to me. "Do you love her?"

I shrug. "Why are you so- ugh, Never mind."