Wicked (MaskedMexican)

Chapter 17 - A Lost Lead

~Gassy's POV~

No matter how hard I try the words in front of me plainly written in English just don't seem to make sense to me. Shutting my eyes tightly I try to get them to return into a state to read again but instead when I open my eyes the words just seem to become even blurrier. Jesus I have a huge headache, I haven't been in this sort of frustrating sensation I'm always in a mysterious haze since... since I was with Renee. Oh please, Jesus please just let this not be a repeat. Sometimes I feel as if the reason I asked him to marry me so soon and suddenly is because I didn't want a repeat of Renee. Waiting too long will make it end in tears, plus, Ohm and I always already know each other and understand each other so I figured it'd all end fine but now I'm just... I guess there was more to Ohm then I thought. Although the over complications and hard feelings always seems to turn me off and leave, this time I just feel as if when I leave it will only make things ten times worse. Right now, Ohm's picture is just continually pressing me in my mind and I just... can't take it away. It's even getting in the way of work. I need a break, only I can't.

The door to my office suddenly opens and I quickly wipe away any sort of troubled look I was bound to have and watch Chilled enter, seeming a bit troubled himself, even worse than me. "You look like crap," I comment and he smiles, laughing slightly as he hands me some documents he's probably been working on. Slowly I take the papers and watch him curiously. The fact he seems like he's even feeling shittier than I am is saying a lot and also, as fucked up as it is, makes me feel better to know someone else is having difficulties.

"I just received some bad news, don't worry about it, plus it seems like Nanners became more distant," he whines and I raise an eyebrow and inwardly frown towards him. That's such a fucking lie, I don't even know why he would lie about something like that but he definitely is. I know Nanners, he hardly acts distant to anybody because he hardly has anything to hide. Instead of asking him anything I just smirk, playing along with this weird charade he's trying to pull. It's Chilled, I'm honestly not surprised he's trying to start shit up when it doesn't need to be.

"Don't worry about Nanners, he's heads over heels for you, though he's bad at showing it when something else is on his mind. Anyways did you tell him about wanting to join the mission?" I change the subject before he digs himself an even bigger whole and he seems to frown when he notices I'm not falling for it. He looks at me now directly now that I've brought up actual business for once.

"I did. He accepted it after seeing that my injuries are nearly healed up," he explains and I nod silently watching him. That's right, he had that entire break thing because he had been injured. Instead of really worrying about him all vacation I was happy out of my mind with Ohm, I hadn't even thought once of Chilled's well being. Ohm always told me I should worry more for my soldiers when I'm usually so invested in what's happening directly in front of me. I stand up from my seat and look up and down the man who tenses up at my sudden rising.

"Actually let me see them too, I hadn't really thought about the injuries unlike Nanners. I guess I just assumed since you're so energetic that you're perfectly fine," I explain my thought process and Chilled hesitates but nods, lifting his shirt to reveal the previously pretty bad injuried. I gaze down towards the injuries, one of them completely like just a scar, nothing bad at all I hardly see what Nanners would be worried about at all. Of course, he hasn't seen Chilled in a while though so it's understandable he hadn't expected it to seem completely healed up. Glancing up towards Chilled I notice him flinch, seeming to be blushing a bit. Seeing this I make a small smile, a bit troubled by his expression. I don't want to think about anybody like that but I have to admit, Chilled isn't bad looking at all although I only feel hesitant because it's Chilled, he'd probably be a worse boyfriend than Ohm has been.