Maybe Someday

Chapter 11

Clarke's POV

WHAT THE HELL BELLAMY, WHAT IS WRONG WITY YOU?!

"You can't expect me to see her damn face everyday and be okay with it, her and madi are the cause of everything bad in my damn life, how can you not see that!"

"Wow you really are delusional"

"Lexa is the reason I have so much blood on my hands because you trusted her and she left, and yet you still forgave her and chose her over your own people, over me! You tried to kill me to protect Madi, you abandoned me bleeding out for some little brat that still hated you anyway, that's all I can see when I close my eyes. You're probably going to abandon me now eventhough all I am doing is trying to set things right!"

In this moment nothing could have stopped the growing anger bubbling in my stomach, to the point of overflowing and all I can see is red as I lunge towards him, delivering punch after punch, no longer capable of acknowledging the passage of time or how much damage I am doing, just the slight twinge in my knuckles as they connect. The next thing I remember is hands clawing at me, pulling me up and away as I struggle to escape their grasp.

It is impossible to even guess how long it has been until my senses gradually begin to click back into place, and I hear the faint whispers of comfort in my ear and Octavia's face directly in front of me, clutching my face as she gently encourages me to breathe.

It takes another few minutes still until I am able to stand on my own shaky feet, and gradually flicker my eyes to Bellamy, laying weak on the floor, his eyes locked onto mine as he attempts to sit up, whilst all other eyes are trained on me. I slowly step forward, trying to find my voice as he shakily finds his own feet.

"I'm okay guys".

"I'm not fucking okay, what the hell is wrong with you?!"

"You screwed up Bellamy, how did you think I would react with you threatening the people I love?!"

"I used to be one of those, until she screwed with your head, she's manipulating you Clarke! Why cant you see that!"

"She never has and never will, this isn't the Bellamy I cared about, I don't know what happened, maybe being part of that freaking cult screwed with you but this isn't you."

"You never did listen to reason, I cant have you poison everyone else here against me."

I feel Octavia place her hand on my shoulder, "she doesn't need to Bell, you're doing a good enough job of that on your own."

"Then I guess I've got nothing else to lose then".

Before I can react, Bellamy lunges towards me, another hidden blade and pushing it against my throat, spinning away from everyone."

"STAY BACK OR SHE DIES"

I see the panic in Octavia's eyes as she tries to speak gently with him.

"Bellamy this isn't you, I know you don't really want to hurt Clarke, please put the blade down."

"I am not moving until the traitor is banished, I will not spend my peace with her anywhere near me. You can either banish her and everyone gets to live or I will split Clarke's throat right here and do the same to her little girlfriend."

Octavia attempts to take a step towards us, and he briefly lifts the blade to point it towards Octavia, don't take another step, I don't want to hurt you O but I will."

I suddenly feel the grip around my shoulders snap away, and the sound of grunting until...silence.

I quickly spin around just to catch Lexa, swiftly elbowing the back of Bellamy's head as he goes limp and crashes to the floor, knocked out as I breathe a sigh of relief, tension slightly draining from my body.

After a moment Lexa steps towards me, checking my neck for any signs of damage.

"Clarke, are you okay?"

"I'm okay, but I-I thought you?"

"That I just left everyone in the company of someone that tried to kill me and threatened you and Madi, not likely. It's a good job I didn't."

"Thank you for saving me.....again"

She nods and gently kisses my cheek stepping away and checking him for any more weapons as she steps away and looks to everyone, addressing them.

"He cant come back, and everyone here knows it, it's not safe, if we tie him up he will find a way to escape."

Octavia, quietly speaks up, "but-"

"No Octavia I know that he is your family but Clarke and Madi and mine. We are all each other's family now and he is endangering everyone else, he cannot come back. I understand I am no longer the commander, but this is something I will not allow. I am not saying that we execute him like in the old world but he cannot come back with us."

She slowly lowers her head, nodding in understanding.



CLARKE'S POV

After the initial shock has begun to wear off and my mind begins to clear, I allow myself to speak up.

"So we banish him, we can tie him up for now, blindfold him and a group of us can take him somewhere far away from here, with essentials but no weapons, he can find his own way to survive from there but he can't know how to get back to us."

I look to Lexa as she firmly nods.

" l agree, we can tell the others what is happening, and see who wishes to take him, although I will be going with them, I wont have a repeat of tonight, this could have ended very differently."





*a few hours later

People had mostly understood in the sense that they knew it had to be done, it doesn't mean they were happy about it, I think they just need a little time to get used to it. We decided that only a few of us should go, the group consisted of only me, Lexa, Echo and Indra. It was silent apart from the rantings of Bellamy, screaming about evil taking over, although I'm sure everyone else is tuning him out. I can't help going over the events from tonight, still unable to wrap my head around the fact that he was going to kill me, I would be dead right now because I didn't want to accept the fact that he was dangerous.


*3 weeks later

We finally arrived back to camp last night, it's been so quiet since we arrived, like everyone is scared to speak too loud in case it break some kind of invisible bubble and it is already driving me crazy. I have been tossing and turning for the last couple of hours, unable to force my mind to shut off, finally Lexa grabs me, keeping me still and settles on one arm, locking her eyes with mine as she gently intertwines our hands.

"Talk to me Clarke, what's on your mind? All of this tossing and turning is making it hard to cuddle you and that is something I don't appreciate".

"I'm sorry, I cant stop thinking about that night and I don't know why."

"Do you regret what we did?"

"Yes but not in the way you think, I should have realised he was dangerous before that night, he should've never been allowed to be alone with you and I should've been more careful. You're right it could have gone a lot worse."

"The past is the past Clarke, you can't let it plague your mind, what happened is not your fault, there is no one to blame but him. Things could have been handled differently but there is no way to say what the outcome would have been. He's gone now, we are safe."

"Everyone is so quiet now, apart from Raven of course but it is pretty much impossible to keep that girl quiet, I don't know how to change it."

"So let's plan something for tomorrow, you can't sleep which means I can't, we've all been focused on survival for too long, I think the last time we all smiled was the water fight so let's do something like that again."

"I think I remember reading about a game, they used to play before the bombs, called capture the flag, they used to use it to improve teamwork, maybe that could work?"

"It's worth a try, although I should warn you, I am very competitive so you need to be prepared."

"Oh Lexa kom trikru, you haven't seen anything yet, maybe it is you who needs to be prepared."

She smirks, and presses a kiss to my hand.

"So what is my prize if I win this game?"

"This is a team game, Lex I don't think you'd like to share the prize I had in mind."

This time, I smirk, as I see her eyes darken and allow her to lean over, cupping my face. I pull away and stand at the last moment.

"Nope, prizes have to be earned babe, it was your idea to set up a game."

She groans and and collapses into the bed, "worst idea ever."

I quickly pull her up, pressing a quick kiss to lips.

"We all need a day to have fun Lex, we have plenty of time for that later."

She continues her pouting, I have to admit, the day I first saw her I never believed I would see the Heda of all clans pouting, looking extremely cute whilst doing it.

I smile and press another kiss to her cheek, "Lots of that, I promise."

She finally cracks a smile, gripping my hand and tugging me out of the tent both laughing and excited for the day ahead.

I apologise this has taken so long to write, a lot has been going on in my life and I have exams coming up so I don't think there will be another chapter for a while until those are out of the way, but I am excited to continue writing this story!

I decided to go with banishing rather than killing off Bellamy's character, I'm still undecided if I will revisit his character in the future because I think there could be potential for an interesting character arc but he is not a main character so if I do decide to, it won't be a large focus of this story and it won't happen for quite a while. 

I decided not to include the trip with Bellamy for now, I wanted to focus on Clexa for a while but that will be coming some time in the future.

Thanks for reading! <3