Linger:
Verb.
To stay in a place longer than necessary because of a reluctance to leave.
Synonyms: wait around, stay, remain...
A shadowy figure in the corner of the room
Practically faceless, but I know who
He is
Because he always lingers
He always has
Up until recently he's always been
In the corner of the room
Glancing
Watching
Staring
Letting his eyes linger a little too long
Nobody else seemed to notice
Or maybe they did
But they didn't want it to be true
Not after all we've been through
These past few years
Not after I had grown so much
Forgotten
Forgiven
But mostly forgot
It was all an act I put up for their sake
And my own
It was the only way
I could get through each week alive
Without feeling the urge to die
Without blaming myself
I ignored him
Glancing
Watching
Staring
At me for such a long time
Because I wanted to believe I was fine
And that nothing had changed
He was still there
So I must be as well
Faceless shadow in my mind
Why do you haunt me at night
In my dreams you visit me
Without saying a word
All you do is linger
In the corner of the room
I wake up feeling numb
I want to tell someone
That you keep appearing
But I have gotten too good
At concealing how I'm feeling
You have taught me
to ignore my emotional well being
And put you first
I know that's what you wanted
You got what you desired
Are you happy now
If you are satisfied
Please leave me
Alone for good
I don't want
To see you
Again
But you still
Wait around
Stay
Remain
In my memories
No matter how much
I want you to go
You linger
YOU ARE READING
A Fraction of My Thoughts
PoetryI write poems sometimes and I want an outlet to share them to. I hope somebody can relate to them and feel understood when they read them. btw none of them go together, it is all just random stuff that I have written when I need to rant. Enjoy!
