sometimes
my lack of motivation
scares me
I just can't seem to get myself
to care anymore
I'm letting myself slip away
into something I wished I'd never become
my grades are slipping away too
what used to be A's
has contorted into C's
average
I'm average
now
nothing about me is incredible
nothing
I'm basic
I'm stupid
I'm plain
I'm forgettable
to the point where
I can't even remember myself
I don't even know why
I hate feeling so hopeless
I can't seem to fix myself
I used to be able to push through
but this overwhelming lack of feeling
has ruined me
it's my fault
I should have never let myself get this bad
where am I going
what am I doing
why am I here
I pushed myself a little too hard
and I haven't been able to recover
I used to be better
I had goals
aspirations
dreams
now
I am lost
in a sea of dark murky nothingness
and I'm drowning
I can't hold my breath much longer
before I am gone forever
YOU ARE READING
A Fraction of My Thoughts
PoetryI write poems sometimes and I want an outlet to share them to. I hope somebody can relate to them and feel understood when they read them. btw none of them go together, it is all just random stuff that I have written when I need to rant. Enjoy!
