12:18 pm
I woke up feeling weird. but why? what happened last night was something I've always been wanting to do with someone I love. I don't know if I made the right choice but in my heart, I know he's the one...I just know it.
I sat up smiling at the thought. I turned and seen August sound asleep. he look so sexy when he's sleeping. I stood up, grabbed my robe, and headed to the bathroom. I looked at myself In the mirror seeing this weird glow I got going on. my skin looked gorgeous. I couldn't help but rub every inch of my body feeling how smoove my skin was. I closed my eyes seeing flashbacks of what happened last night. I felt another pair of hands rubbing on me also. I shot my eyes open only to notice it was August.
"Morning Baby"
"Morning...how'd you sleep?"
"Man, I slept great! how about you?"
"I slept like a baby"
We both laughed and continued just talking. we walked downstairs and played around cooking breakfast. I felt so good when I was with him. I know he feels good when he's with me too.
2:30 pm
I was sitting down in the living room Watching ride along, when August came in smiling. what the hell? he walked over and sat down slowly trying to calm his self.
"baby girl guess what?"
"What?"
"I just got the best news of my life! okay, so I got invited on tour with Chris Brown and Trey Songz! they said if I go it'll be 25 Gs in my hand right after and I have to leave at about 3pm today"
I was happy for him, I can admit that, but this soon? I'm not even sure if I can be without him for so long. I try to hide my sadness by smiling but I guess he already sensed it.
"It's okay, ill be back soon"
"And when is soon August? If I can't be here alone for 5 hours what makes you think being gone for months is gonna have me?"
"Fine I won't go then. if your gonna trip and really need me here then ill stay"
"No you go. if it means this much to you then go"
"What do you want me to do? huh? I can't just stop my career for you Carmen! I have a life to ya know!"
He was right. who am I to stop him from doing what he do best. I can be alone for a couple of months...or at least I think I am. I looked at him and kissed his cheek.
"Just don't forget about me okay? I know how you famous people are"
"Never That baby, never that. Alright listen...ill give you tickets for all the concerts and which ever one you can make it to go and ill make sure you get backstage passes to all of them also okay?"
"Alright. but you might wanna get to packing it's already 2:47"
He jumped up and dashed up the steps. I couldn't help but laugh, then it faded because I started to think about being in this big house all by myself. maybe I should invite my girls over and have a girls night out or something just to get my mind off of it. Yeah, that's just what I need.
3:07 pm
"Damn I'm about to be late. see you later baby"
He gave me a quick kiss and left. I stood at the door Watching Him drive off to the airport. I'm going to miss him, I really really am. I sighed then shut my front door locking it. I moped around and just started eating ice cream. damn, I'm depressed already. I knew I couldn't be alone not even for a couple minutes. that's some bullshit.
