12:47 pm
I woke up to the smell of breakfast. I began to smile knowing it would be August, or maybe Trevor. Oh man, last night I cheated for real this time. Trevor really started sweet talking me and I started thinking about August. The things Trevor was saying about me last night made me imagine me and him sharing a meal together. Knocking myself out if my thoughts, I slipped out of bed throwing on my silk gown and heading down my staircase.
I heard a familiar voice talking and which sounding like their feet pacing back and forth. Sounds like a heated August to me...
"August? Is that you?"
As I walked further, the foot steps stopped.
"Carmen"
I could almost feel the hurt in his voice. Did he know? Is he gonna hurt me cause I did? Right now I'm scared for my life and shaking like crazy.
"What's this?"
"What's wha-"
He threw a note rudely at my face. I bent down to pick it up and saw that it was a note Trevor left.
"Dear sweet Carmen,
I had fun yesterday especially last night. I know you don't want anything more than just a friendship with me, but I felt like you wanted something more. I still love you Carmen. Oh I also made you a little breakfast hope you enjoy."
I looked up as tears started forming in my eyes and August already letting his fall. At this moment I am speechless. What I have done has made this relationship fall down hill. I knew it wasn't gonna go well once Trevor came back into my life.
"I swear I didn't mean for this to happen baby! I swear it didn't mean a thing. I thought he was you at the moment the way he was sweet talking me. I am so so soooo sorry."
"You sorry? YOU SORRY!"
"August stop you're scaring me"
"GOOD! I AM SO DONE WITH YOU! I KNEW IT WAS A BAD IDEA GIVING A STRIPPER A CHANCE. I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A THEORY THAT YOU KIND OF GIRLS HAD SEX WITH MILLIONS OF GUYS BUT I WAS WRONG! I- I"
"Don't you sa-say it Aug. you know you won't mean it."
I was drowning in my own tears right now. Can't believe the man I love so much is so hurt cause of me. I tried grabbing him to pull him closer he just pushed me away. That made me cry even harder.
"August look at me, please. I love you. Please say it back. What happened didn't mean a thing I swear! Don't leave me, we can make this work again."
"How? HOW?! I'm done Carmen. You played me, made me look like a damn fool. To think I was gonna marry you today, let you move in, have a fresh new start, have kids together? Nah. I might as well Marry a prostatute."
"You were gonna marry me?"
"Yeah crazy huh?"
He picked up his coat off the back of the chair and grabbing his keys off the counter. He began walking away when I grabbed his hand.
"We need some time apart Carmen"
"I still love you and that'll never change."
He slipped straight from my fingers heading straight for the front door. Once the door shut I immediately broke down again. After hours of crying I looked up. I noticed he left the ring there, right in front of me. I opened up the little black box seeing a ring with the biggest diamond I ever seen. I started smiling trying to hold back the tears and pain I felt. I slid the ring on my finger.
"I'll never take it off"
3 years later
Let me catch you up on my life real quick. I quit being a stripper and I am now living in a mansion and I'm a Model plus still single, yup single...still haven't heard back from August and I know he's had enough time. I've been acting like I'm in a relationship and I'm not even in one been curving niggas ever since he left me.
As I was getting ready for my next photo shoot for This magazine, I received a call from this unknown number.
"Hello?"
"Yes, are you Carmen?"'
"Yes I am with whom am I speaking with?"
"This is Augusts mother. I haven't heard from my son in almost two years. I found this number in his phone he left at my house a while back. I seen that you were the last person he talked to? If I am correct."
"Im not sure but if that's what you see then I Guess so. Why haven't you spoken to him? Is he alright?"
"That's what I'm trying to know."
"I'll call you back once I find out okay mrs.alsina? "
"Okay, it was nice meeting you Carmen"
"Same to you."
Wow. August hasn't spoken to his family in damn near two years!? What is going on. I hope this isn't because of me. My manager walked in telling me lets go. I nodded and headed out.
5:09 pm.
I walked out of the building still feeling uneasy about that call. The whole photoshoot I could barely focus. The camera man even sensed it cause he kept letting me take breaks to get my shit together. I got in my car thinking if he would still be living in that same house. I put in his address and drive to it. Finally getting to see him and it's been 3 long years...
