Black Plague

Chapter 36

I went to Draco's room stripped to my pants and climbed into his bed as he slept. He pulled me close and I buried my face in his chest. I smelled his lavender scented skin and vanilla scented hair. Just breathing him in as he held me tight. My mind began to calm as I lay in his arm. He was like a balm to my broken heart. I knew that was dangerous. But right now I needed his healing touch. I kissed his cheek and drifted off to sleep.
When I woke up the next morning I felt his arms around me and he was running his fingers through my hair. I blinked my sleepy eyes and saw him looking at me. "Would you still love me if I gave up all my power?" He scoffed at my question
"Of course. I love you. Not your power or money or even looks. Though all those things are a nice bonus" he quipped. I smiled into his bare chest.
"I told Voldemort I won't be a Dark Lord. I am leaving after this year I think. I can't even stand to look at him. Much less rule by his side. He admitted he's only attracted to my power and when he's close to me his soul calls to mine. Because they are one. But he never truly loved me. I think part of me always knew. He never thought about me, unless he was next to me. But I wanted to believe he loved me as much as I loved him. It was all a facade. As soon as I left his side he would forget all about me. How could I have been so stupid as to give him my heart? I think I just wanted to be loved so bad." I broke down crying. "Nobody has ever loved me before. Except maybe you. My father doesn't love me. My family hates me. My soulmate doesn't care about me. Even Snape, who is like a surrogate father only has fondness towards me. Nobody has ever truly loved me. And I just wanted to belong to someone so bad. I threw all caution to the wind and clung to the first thing that seemed like love. And of course I was wrong. But how could I know. I've never had it before. Am I unlovable?" I broke down sobbing.
Draco held me closer. "No, you aren't unlovable. You just need to look in the right places. I love you more than anything. If you are leaving, I will come with you. I never want to leave your side." I smiled at that. "You want to know what I see when look at you?"
I nodded.
"I see someone so sad, and so broken. The whole world has tried to destroy you. From the moment you were born the stars were lined up against you. Born to a mother with at least four lovers. I bastard child bound to be rejected by the man who gave you his name. You were the child of prophesies. But lost everything even to the point of almost losing your life. You were thrown into a retched family who somehow had the ability to hate a child, given you nothing. Yet through all this you became strong. Your struggles became your motivation. You heartache gave you nerves of steel. And even though your guardian stole millions and you soulmate only wants to use you. You fight each day to become greater. Yes. Fate seems poised to destroy you. But you're strong. You love deeply. You have mentored me even when I was a whiny rich kid who never had to work for a thing in my life. You saw potential for greatness and pushed me to achieve it. With no benefit for yourself. You're selfless. You're cunning. Your self preservation is remarkable. You are always striving to be better. And you have wisdom that only someone who has seen many years of pain and struggle can grasp. Yes, your heart is tender, and you love deeply. But right now, it's been broken and it needs time to heal. I don't expect you to love again for a while. But when your heart has had time to become strong again, please consider me. I would do anything to have that love directed at me. My love and loyalty are yours alone. Even if it takes years to trust in me, I don't care. I will follow you to the ends of the earth. Please, let me prove myself." His words were beautiful. And these softened my heart just a bit. His sweet sincerity drew me in and made me want to try trusting him. I nodded. "Ok." I said softly. I went into his head and unlocked the memory of our first and only time together. To show him the only time I said I loved him, the only time I screamed his name in ecstasy. And I wanted him to know. Thankfully, I hadn't just obliviated him. There would be no bring that back. But the memories had been safely stored away, just in I case I changed my mind. He began crying and held me tight. "Thank you" he choked out. I nodded with a slight smile on my lips.
"You said you loved me" he exclaimed.  I smiled a bit bigger and nodded again.
"I did" he laughed in complete euphoria. "Thank you for this!" I smiled into his chest. "You're welcome"
I began running my hand over his strong chest. He had more muscle than me. He would never be considered bulky, but his muscles were well defined. And sparse blond hair speckled his chest and a thin trail of hair ran down from his belly button to his nice hard cock. The cock that always throbbed and wept just for me. I ran my hands down his love trail and was met with his rock hard cock. It was big in my small hands. I don't really know if he was larger than average, but he was larger than me. And I knew how good he felt inside my core. I gripped his pulsating member and began stroking it slowly as I began kissing his neck. His skin tasting a little like lavender and musk. I loved his delicate smell. He flipped my in my back and began removing my pants and his silk pajama bottoms. He began rubbing his body against mine making me moan loudly. "Please, of fuck please. I need more so bad." I shivered beneath him with my desperation. He kissed me and I melted in his arms. This was love. It was tender and sweet. Not wild and untamed. This was more than just lust. This was real. It might not last. My happiness never did, but it was perfect none the less. He used a Wandless lubrication charm that made me so proud of him, but now was not the time to discuss it. Now I needed him inside me. He pushed a finger into me and I keened in delight. I arched my back to get closer to him. I sucked on his neck leaving my mark on his body. My arms grasping his back trying to pull him ever closer. "Fuuuuck!" I squealed, as he pressed that special spot inside of me. He slowly moved his long, thin fingers in and out of me. I wrapped my legs around him as I rocked against his hand. I licked and sucked his nipples as he stretched me open. He groaned louder and louder but kept focusing on my pleasure. Soon he was lining his cock up to my fluttering ass. "Pleeease!" I moaned.
"Oh God yes!!" I squealed as he pushed into me. He stayed pressed up against my body as he made sure I was completely ready. Then began moving slowly within me. I dug my nails in and arched against his chest as he began fucking me. "Draco! Of fuck! Harder please!!" I moaned. He lost his resolve and began fucking me hard. My body quivered as pleasure pulsated through my body. My cock running along his stomach as he kept pressing into my core. "Yes, yes! YES!! OH GOD YES!" I felt like my body was floating. Nothing felt like being fucked by Draco. And in this moment I knew I could easily fall in love with him. And that scared me. I was terrified of breaking irreparably. But while I was drawn to Voldemort. And I loved him. It was more of a love filled with lust and obsession. This was tender, and sweet, and I knew I would become addicted to this. Never had I felt so loved. He made me want to love again. Trust again. I knew it was stupid. I would never survive if I was cast aside again. But for the moment I ignored that, what mattered was Draco and feeling like I finally found where I belonged. "Draco!!!" I screamed and fell apart below him. Completely untouched. My ass began clenching around his long hard cock, making him groan and fill me with his seed. He pressed deep into me. Filling my core. I clung to him like he was the only thing keeping me afloat. "fuck draco. I want to love you so much. My heart longs for me to just let go. But I was just broken so bad. But your love feels so different. It's so sweet, and tender. Your love is so pure. Is this what love is supposed to feel like? I'm so sorry for making you wait while I chased after a love that was never meant to be. And now I'm too broken to return your love. I want to. I could easily love you. You make it so easy. But I just don't know if I can. I would never recover if you left me." He chuckled and held me against him. His bodies still joined with mine. "Yes, love is sweet, and gentle. Like you said, you've never been loved before. How were you supposed to know what it felt like?" I groaned. "God I'm such an idiot. Of course love is tender." I dropped my head back in my disbelief at myself. How had I missed this? He kissed my cheek and continued to lay on my. I found I loved the feeling his weight on me. It made me feel safe and secure. I kissed his neck a few more times as he quietly snore above me. Before long I was joining him in peaceful sleep.

We woke up to Lord Malfoy checking on Draco. Having skipped breakfast and being late to lunch. He sputtered and gawked awkwardly causing me to hide my face in Draco's neck. Wishing I could just disappear. Draco chuckled quietly and pulled a blanket over us before rolling off me.
"Sorry father. Hades and I had a long night." That didn't help the blush on my face. "Draco!" I hissed in embarrassment. He laughed and pulled me close. "We will be down in a bit"
His dad nodded and left the room.
I turned to Draco. "So you'll really run away with me after the school year's over?" Draco nodded"Your fathers's going to hate me if you leave Hogwarts with me" I groaned. Draco shrugged. "So. We'll live in Potter manor or Black Manor, self study, take out NEWTs in a couple years, before everyone else.  You are an amazing duelist so you can train me, and we will make something of ourselves. Honestly you should probably be an assassin. But I am sure you could be whatever you want. And if you still want to leave the country, we can do they once we pass all our tests. I'm sure we will figure it all out."
I smiled. He made my dream of running away seem so practical, so doable.

I pulled him down on me again and kissed him. Trying to convey every emotion inside me. Telling him how much I adored him without saying a word.