How to save a life [ongoing]

Chapter 5

TW: suicide attempt  (od- if u aren't comfortable reading it skip from * to *- 1 paragraph), suicidal thoughts, self harm (cutting- skip from ^ to ^) negative thoughts ect, overtraining?

                                    ——3am Wednesday——

'Work harder, you won't win nationals if you can't be the best. You're failing, you need to do better. Do better. Do better. Be better. Better than everyone else'

'You're going to lose and humiliate yourself. They will hate you. EVERYONE will hate you'

'You shouldn't even be alive, you're pathetic and worthless'

"I KNOW!" He yelled as he threw one of his trophies at the wall. Today, was a particularly bad day for the young man. The thoughts were deafening and suffocating. Salty rivers flowed down his soft face . "I KNOW, I KNOW THAT ALREADY. CAN YOU PLEASE BE QUIET. FUCK WHAT AM I DOING, IM TALKING TO MYSELF, YOU ARE ME, YOU'RE MY FUCKED UP MIND" he said pulling on his hair as he sat down in the corner of his room. 'I know, I'm a failure and I won't make it anywhere' he thought as he rested his head on his knees crying. He stayed like that for hours. No one was home, everyone had somewhere to be, he couldn't call anyone. Iwaizumi would be asleep and he didn't want to worry him. He felt completely alone. Eventually his alarm clock went off, the ringing pierced through his ears like a sharp dagger. He hadn't slept properly in days. He waited calmly for it to turn itself off.

(1)New message
Iwa-chan🥰: where are you?

Oikawa dazed at his phone, he couldn't reply, if he was being honest he couldn't do anything but stare into the obis. He was still curled up in the darkest corner of his room. He felt nothing, but it was a heavy nothing, one that weighed down in his chest. 'Today is gonna be a bad day, I can't mask it, I can't do anything' he thought to himself.

                                    ——A couple of hours later——

(7)New messages
He didn't bother to look at them, he didn't need too. He knew what they were about.

(16) New messages
He hadn't moved an inch, slept nor spoken a word to anyone. At around 4pm he heard banging on the main door of his house. He heard iwaizumi yelling but nothing in him changed. He sat there. Still. Staring at nothing.

Iwaizumi was worried, it's not like Oikawa to just disappear without saying anything. Usually if oikawa were ill, he'd spam the team group chat aswell as his stories, whining and complaining about how he felt like shit and how life was unfair and he was bored. So he knew it wouldn't have been that. All day worry kept building up more and more. He noticed he had been acting strange lately and had a feeling his insomnia was back, but that still wouldn't explain why he didn't reply. Something had to be wrong he thought as he climbed over the fence. After knowing the Oikawa family for years, he knew they left a key hidden in the back garden. He made his way in the house, yelling as he checked each room.

'Fuck, he's here. How's he here?? The back door key... I have to move. I have to move. I have to move.' He thought. He couldn't, his body wasn't letting him. 'Come on, come on, come on' he raised his arms and hit his head a couple times.

The rushed footsteps grew closer..and closer.. and closer... Iwaizumi's fear only grew with each step and moment of silence.

"fuck fuck fuck" he whispered quietly to himself as he stood up abruptly and ran to his bed, covering his head with his dark blue duvet cover. The door swung open as the shorter man's head searched the room. Eventually his eyes laid down upon the body engulfed by a large blanket. He walked over and sat on the floor next to the bed to give his friend some space.