Caught Up in my Thoughts

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It was Friday. Calum said that we should tell the fans about me. I was really nervous because I saw how people that got followed by them would get hate and here I am Calum's sister and I live with them. I got ready makeup, hair was curled, and I had a cute outfit on. The boys were going to take a picture with me and put it up on all of there Twitters. They would say that  I was Calum's sister and that my name was Cecilia.

An hour later

My phone was buzzing like crazy. People where following me and messaging me. We had put the picture on my Twitter also. I was looking through the comments and everything people had said to me. A lot of things were nice, bit there was also a lot of hate. People were saying things like I shouldn't be his sister or I was fat and ugly. They called me a slut and said o should just kill myself. I didn't get why these people were being do mean to me. I hadn't done anything to them, yet they hated me. I couldn't take the pain anymore. I locked my phone and walked to the bathroom. I closed and locked the door. I took out blade. I knew Ashton and Michael would be sad but I had to. I cut my legs and then my wrists. I sat there somewhat in a trans as I watched the blood ooze out. Then I realized what was happening. I quickly cleaned up my cuts. I had about 20 on my legs and the same on my wrists. I rapped them up and the changed into a pair of black leggings and a gray sweatshirt. They stung and I didn't really feel any better. Deep inside me I new I never would when I cut, but I still did.

Saturday

Luke had spent the night and today was our date. The boys had been writing a song. I had heard some of it and i loved it. It was something called Unpredictable. I got up and took a shower. I did my hair and makeup like always. I had this feeling like something was wrong though. I picked out my outfit. Black skinny jeans, an All Time Low T-shirt and my pair of black Converse. I put all of my bracelets on and a jacket on. I went down stairs to get some breakfast. That's when Calum stopped me. "Cece we have to leave right now! Mali got in a  car accident!" My glass of water feel from my had as he said those words. We ran to the car and rushed to the hospital. Ashton, Michael, and Luke came with us. "I need to see my sister Mali Koa Hood. She just got in a car accident." Calum said to the nurse. "I'm sorry Mr.Hood, but you can't see her right now." She must have been bad. I started crying and Luke held me. "No I need to see her!" Calum said as he got a little mad. Ashton went over and got Calum to sit down with us. A doctor came out and walked over to us. "Are you guys the here for Miss Hood?" He asked. "Yes sir we are. Can we please see her?" Calum asked standing up." Yes, but only family for right now please. She is unconscious." He said and motioned for us to follow him. We walked down the white hallway. It felt like it was closing in on me. I got very dizzy and tears blinded my vision. "She's right in here." The doctor said ushering us in a room. There lay Mali. She was hooked up to several machines, and she had bruises and cuts all over. "How... how bad is she?" Calum asked. "Well, she isn't very good. We don't know if she will make it or not. A drunk driver hit her head on and the car flip a few times. If she does make it she my not remember anything, she could be paralyzed, or both." He told us. I walked over to her and laid besides her. Why would this happen to her. She couldn't leave me like this. I just laid there and cried for hours Calum sat in a chair besides us. Our mom had come and it she was on the other side. Calum just sat there. He held her hand in his. His face was blank and his eyes red. Even though I had only known her for a little while she was still my sitter and I couldn't just let her go.

A week later

We had stayed at the hospital the hole week. The other boys would bring us things we needed. She still hadn't regained consciousness. The only thing that was keeping her alive was the machines. "Why don't you go home and get some rest and I stay here." Calum said. I just shook my head no. I hadn't spoken the hole week. There was nothing to say. Then the doctor came in with our mom. They both had a look on their faces I couldn't read. "Calum, Cecelia we are going to take Mali off of life support." The doctor said. "No! No you can't! Then  she'll... she'll die." I screamed at them. "I'm sorry honey but this is better for her. She... she just can't make it without the life support." My mom said coming over to me crying a little. She tried to hug me but I pulled away. I walked over to Mali. The tears streaming down my face. "Mali... you can't you just can't leave me! Please Mali!" I cryed as u held hee hand. She just lead there. Calum came over. "Mali, I love. I know I acted liked a jerk sometimes but I really do. I'll miss you. Bye sis. I love you!" We both started crying more and Michael came and got Calum. My mom came over next. She said something but I didn't listen. Then she left. A nurse tryed to get me to leave but I wouldn't. That was it they took her off of life support. "Mali, no please don't leave me. I can't do this without you. I love you sis!" Just before the machine went flat, I felt her squeeze my head, then she was gone. "Bye Mali." Ashton walked in and helped me out of the room. She was really gone. It all sunk in then. I couldn't breath, everything started spinning, then it went black.

Ashton's POV

She fell to the ground as we walked. A nurse ran over with a doctor right behind her. Luckily she had just pasted out because of the shock. We took her home and she went straight to bed. Calum did too. Nobody new this was just the start of her troubles. The light that was in her eyes would soon fade and it would be a long time till we would see it again. Mali was gone, and in some ways so was Cecilia for now.

Hey! So a lot happened... I'm really sorry. Please don't hate me for her dying but things will get better. Maybe not in the next chapter but soon. I hope you guys will still like it and read! Please tell me what you think and vote. Thanks! Love you all!- Abbie :)