Caught Up in my Thoughts

Not Quite Right

Cecilia's POV
I woke up the next day to Luke sitting on the bed with breakfast and a stack of movies. "Good morning love!" He said and gave me the tray. "Good morning and thanks." I said smiling. "Where did the movies come from?" I asked and took a bight of my pancakes. I couldn't not eat in front of him cause he knows, and it might hurt his feeling. "I brought them from home. I thought we might want to watch some." He said and handed me a few to look at. Their was Monsters Inc. Hunger Games, The Notebook, Finding Nemo, and Snow White. "Really Luke?" I laughed holding up The Notebook and Snow White. "What they're good movies?" He laughed and put one in the DVD player. I decided to piling my phone up and see if anybody had texted me. It died at some point and I forgot to charge it. When it came on I had several misses calls and a lot of texted. There was 12 texted form Sky 7 from Michael 5 from Ashton and 16 from Calum. I also had 3 calls from Sky 5 from Michael 8 from Ashton and 10 from Calum. Most of the first texted were asking us to come back and then saying we should have a good time, bit the last few from each of them was telling us to call them. The boys probably told Sky that we had runaway. I ignored it and went to watch the movie. I had no idea were Luke's phone was and I didn't care. He probably had the same this g as me. We watched Snow White first then Hunger Games and we were watching The Notebook. "Luke please..." I whispered to him as we watched the end of The Notebook. We where cuddled up together in bed. He was holding me and my head was on his chest. "Please what?" He whispered back. "Please don't ever leave me. I don't know what I would do." He looked down at me as the credits started. "Never." He said. I felt his soft lips graze over mine and then he kissed me for a long time. Then all of a sudden my phone started ringing. We stopped kissing and I went to see who it was. My phone said Ash =P so I thought I should answer it. "Hello?" I said into the phone. "Hey, the boys and I have been trying to reach you guys." Ashton said a little worried. Luke asked who it was and I told him it was Ashton. "My phone was dead sorry." "Oh ok, I hope you guys are having a good time." He said calmly. "Yeah we are!" "Well we need you guys to come home cause we have some really big news. We have to know by the end of this week." My happiness left. "Oh okay. I will tell him. Bye." I said shortly and hung up before even letting him say bye. I was scared that they would be leaving. Louis from One Direction had said something about their cover of Teenage Dirt Bag and I know that One Direction was supposed to be going on tour soon. "Hey! Cece are you okay?" Luke asked pulling me out of my thoughts. "Oh yeah, sorry
" He just smiled. "So what was Ashton calling about?" He asked as I went and cuddled back into him. "Well he said that he has some big news and that they have to know by the end of this week so we have to come home right now." I told him loosing the smile on my face. "Oh... do you wanna leave in the morning?" He asked a little sadly. "I guess." "Okay we can pack in the morning. Let's finish our movies." Luke sounded happier now and that made me happy. He turned on the next one and then while the opening advertisements were on ordered a pizza for us. We had slept through the time to have breakfast and had already had lunch. The night went my so fast that when the last movie ended and it was 11 at night I couldn't believe it. We got ready and went to bed. I was dreading the next morning.
Morning
"Hey I'm gonna take a shower and then you can okay?" I said going I not the bathroom. When I was done with my shower and came out of the bathroom Luke had already packed everything up for me and for himself. "Thanks for packing everything up for me." I said and he just smiled. I got dressed in my black leggings and one of Luke's red flannels with my black combat boots and a beanie. I blow dried my hair and it looked nice enough with the beanie on. It was wavy but not frizzy. While doing my makeup Luke came out of the bathroom. He was already dress and just had to fix his hair so I went over and laid on the bed and looked at Twitter. There were so many nice fans and I loved it. They said some of the sweetest thing about me or me and they guys. But there was also a lot of hate. I had people saying that I didn't deserve to be Luke's girlfriend. Others said that I was fat and ugly or that the boys didn't really love me and didn't want me. I had never seen this before but people started to say that they would or wanted to kill me. A tear rolled down my cheek and unluckily Luke saw it. "Hey baby what's wrong?" He asked coming over and sitting next to me. I showed hime my phone not able to speak or I may start crying. His sweet sympathetic look faded and was replaced with a very mad one. "This is crazy. I don't care if they are our fans they're acting really stupid and I don't like them." He paused and thought for a minute. "I'm gonna talk to the guys when we get home about getting you a body guard. Even if we aren't that famous I don't want anything to happen to you." He gave me a big hug before getting up. "Do you wanna leave now?" He asked. I nodded and put my backpack on to leave.
Home
"They what?" I screamed. "Yeah One Direction asked us to go on tour with them." Michael said calmly. "OH MY GOSH!!!" I screamed even louder. Part of me was so happy because this was a good opportunity for them and I might get to meet them. Even possiblely go on tour with them. "I think that we should go." Luke said. "Yeah me and Cal think so too, but Michael doesn't." "It's just cause they're a boy band and I don't want to be labeled as that." I sat there quietly listening as they stride to convince Michael. They finally did when they said that it would show people the difference between the two. This might be one of the coolest things ever.
Two days later
It was official. They would be the opening act for 1D. The boys said they had to tell me something so I went down to the living room to see what it was. "Well we talked to our manager and he said that you could come to England, The US, Canada and of course here but the rest of the places you can't. We really tried to get him to change his mined but he wouldn't." A wave of emotions came over me, and the boys could tell. Calum got to me before Luke and picked me up into his lap. How could they leave me like this. It wasn't fair. "Hey it will be okay. I promise, and we will only be hone for a little while." Calum said trying to comfort me. I wasn't gonna cry. I couldn't. I got up and stared at them. "How could you?! I thought you said you would always be here! And now when I need you more than ever!" They all looked sad and hurt, but I wasn't done. "I mean this is awesome for you guys and I can just be selfish, but you guys promised me! Ugh! I HATE YOU GUYS!" I screamed. They looked even more hurt. "You can't just..." I trailed of knowing I was about to start crying, and I didn't want to do that in front of them. "Cece wait!" Luke called and tried to grabbed my wrist as I ran up the stairs. Cold tears streaming down my face I slammed the door to my room and went to my bed. "Please Cece let us in!" Yelled Ashton as Calum banged on the door. I just laid there. "Please..." Michael cried. "We need to talk about this." Luke said. "There's nothing to talk about!" I yelled. "Yes there is." Calum said. "Just go away! You're already doing it do why not make it sooner!" I yelled again and went into my bathroom. I could here Calum and Ashton still trying to get in and banging on the door. Michael was saying something but I couldn't hear him and I could hear Luke hit the wall with his fist and then slide down it to the floor. I knee what I wanted to do. Ashton and Michael had said to come talk to them whenever I felt like doing it, but they were pretty much gone already. I locked the bathroom door and got out my blade. I cut and cut and cut until so much blood had come out that I felt dizzy, but I kept cutting. Then everything went black.

Michael's POV
"Please Cece let us in. You have to talk to us." I said, but got no answer. A few seconds later I heard the bathroom door slam shut. I knew what she was doing. It was one of two things and both would be very bad. "We have to get in there. Now!" I said the the other boys. "Yeah I know but she won't open the door." Cal said. I pushed Calum and Ashton away from the door. Then I went as fare back from the door as I could and ran. It smashed in and we walked over to the bathroom. "Cece please let me in." Luke said. I knew what she was doing and I had to get in there. Again I smashed the door open and there she was. Laying on the ground cuts all over her with the blade still in her hand. There was blood coming out of them and lots on the floor. I ran over to her followed my the other boys. Her pulse was faint. "Go get me some towels!" I yelled and Ashton got them and handed them to me. "I'll go call an ambulance." Ashton said and started to call one. I wrapped her cuts up as best I could and before I could Luke picked her up. Calum staying right there with her. Sirens could be heard and for just a second Cece opened her eyes and saw Luke. Not me. I was the one that new what was happening and helped the most, but now she would think it was Luke. It was always Luke for her. Even when I tried to be there for her. It was always Luke, and not me. From the very first day. Always Luke.

Hey guys! Sorry I didn't update last week. I had a lot of stuff at home going on and I was sick. I hope you like this chapter even though it's kinda sad. The next one will be better though. What do you think about Michael? Please tell me in the comments and vote and all that good stuff. Thanks for reading!- Abbie :D