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12. My Golden girl

Harry

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I could hardly sleep, so I don't

And I could hardly speak, so I won't

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When I hung up on Ember when I knew Patrick did something I yelled at the driver which got the boys to ask a million questions

"Harry what the fuck is going on?" Liam asked but I ignored him trying to calm myself down at the thought of seeing her hurt just made my stomach twist but I was actually going to see her hurt, what type of hurt what she? was she cut up? was she breathing? questions I should've asked Ember on the phone instead of freaking out and hanging up on her

I see the driver hit 95 down the main roads weaving in and out of the cars and I'm glad he kind of knows how to drive without getting us killed, a long five minutes later we approach their house and I see the fucking mansion of a building, I throw my door open and I run up the steps to the door storming in, I see the all of the lights are on and I see the bright living room, I see glass everywhere and my stomach drops

what the fuck did he do?

I walk into many different rooms calling out Ember's name but I don't hear an answer, I feel my hands start to shake. she can't be gone, my Goldie I just met her she- she has to be here somewhere

I walk into the kitchen and I see a girl with blonde hair sitting down on the floor hovering over someone I presume it's Esme and I sit next to Ember, she drifts her eyes over to me and she let's her tears fall, she cries and looks down at the body in front of us, "did you call 911?" I ask her and I hear a voice which makes my head turn to the stove, "we did" I notice Louis and I look between them, this is the girl he's been dating, what a small fucking world

My eyes finally notice my golden girl in front of me and I see cuts all along her body, I see the scars on her thighs from yesterday and I see the new cuts on her face, her eyebrow, her shirt by her rib is cut open and I see bruises there, I look down her arms and I see slashes on her bicep, she wasn't hurt she was attacked by a fucking psychopath and I look to Ember and Lou, "Can I have a minute alone?" I ask them as I feel the hot tears pool my eyes and they nod, Ember stands up and takes Louis's hand and they walk into the living room away from us

"Hi my sweet girl" I whisper to her and I rest my hand in her open palm, her hands feel freezing and I lean my head to her chest to see for myself if she's breathing and she is, it's very light but it's there at least

"how did this happen?" I say and I feel myself breakdown in front of her, I feel my tears stream down my face as I squeeze her lifeless hand, I look at her eyelids and I see the right one has a black eye, I run my hand on the side of her head and I sniffle

"come on tour with me" I ask her but she doesn't respond, I smile and I stare at her face hoping she would sit up and smile with her warm eyes and say yes, but she doesn't and it rips me apart

this is my fault and I know it, Patrick warned me when I lied about fucking her, he told told me she would pay for this and she is by being hurt and having to go through this, he wouldn't of been mad if it wasn't for me and I will forever blame myself for this sweet creature being hurt because of my own doing

I see my tears drop onto her pale cheeks and I smile in sadness over her, "don't leave me just yet baby, the world has plans for you love, I know it" I whisper to her and I rub my thumb over the middle of her palm, "please just magically wake up my golden girl" I cry to her but she doesn't move, but I will stay with her however long she needs because I'm drawn to her and I already know this is gonna hurt

"Goldie, please wake up" I shake her lightly but she doesn't respond, I hear the loud footsteps of boots enter the kitchen and I look behind me to see a few paramedics walk to Esme, one crouches down and puts his ear to her heart when he looks up to the paramedics around me he shakes his head and my heart drops, "why did you just shake your head?" I ask In frustration and one paramedic pulls me aside while I hear the other voices

"she needs oxygen stat" I hear one and I feel the tears fall faster and harder, "we don't have a pulse move it" I hear one say frantically and I yell as the one pulls me to the corner of the room, "she doesn't have a pulse?" I yell at him and he shushes me, "she will we need you to calm down sir" the man is a few inches taller than me and he pushes me to the wall, I try to look at Esme but she has an oxygen mask on her as they put her on the stretcher, "I need you to tell me what happened" the man asks me but when I try to get closer to Esme he pulls me back, I look at her body as they wheel her out of the house and I yell, "Esme wake up please" I cry out and I feel myself slipping away at the thought of her not being here anymore

"Sir you can go with her if you just tell me what happened" he says and I look at his face and he seems like he cares, "h-her boyfriend, ex-boyfriend he got mad at her and did that to her" I say vaguely and he writes it down, "what lead to this happening?" he asks and I feel my stomach twist, "I told him I fucked her when I didn't, it got him pissed off and he beat her, I say it because he doesn't deserve her pure soul, he hurts her everyday physically and mentally" I say to him and he looks at me nodding his head and he looks back to his note pad writing down what I said, "what's your name?" he asks, "harry styles" I say and he nods to the door of the house and I run out catching the ambulance before it drives away, the man looks at me through the window of the backdoors to the ambulance and he opens them up, "who are you?" he asks and I look at Esme, "I'm Harry styles her friend" I say and he shakes his head, "only family or spouse" he shrugs and I stop the door from shutting, "please don't do this I need to be with her" I say and he looks at me in my eyes and I hope he sees my desperation

I'm guessing he does because he waves me to come on and I jump in sitting down across from him and I hold her Hand, I see the oxygen mask on her and I look at the faint heartbeat on the monitor, I guess they got her heartbeat to pump again which is a better sign than before, she's a strong women I know she won't give up on her dreams

the ride is only about five minutes as I feel us weave through traffic, I see the hospital in front of us and they wheel Esme out to the nearest room and I get stopped before entering with her, "we need you to stay her she is going into emergency surgery for her ribs, it will take a few hours" the front desk lady say and I look down nodding, she'll be okay, I know she will, she has to be, my golden girl will be alright

I sit In the waiting room and fifteen minutes later I see Louis, Ember, Niall, Liam, and Zayn enter together and they all sit down in chairs beside me, they stare at me waiting to talk and I try to find the words to say, "she's breathing, she's in emergency surgery right now and It will be a couple of hours, they need to fix her ribs so" I shrug trying not to cry for the hundredth time tonight, I see Ember's tears fall down her face and Louis hugs her, I've never seen him like this with someone and it makes me happy for him, Niall doesn't say anything but he focusing on a tile on the ground he's thinking

I shift my eyes to Liam and he's speaking with Zayn, they look to me and I Iean in closer to them, "is this Patricks doing?" Zayn asks me and I nod, "yes, and it's was because of me" I mumble and I see Liam shake his head, "you didn't know mate, you know she won't blame you either she has a heart of gold" he says and I nod, Goldie oh how you impact everyone

I lean back to my chair and I look up to the ceiling hoping everything goes okay because I won't know what to do if she doesn't come out of this well, I need and want her in my life, I adore her

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