Backstage (h.s)

13. Loving is the Antidote

Esme

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You're the reason that I feel so strong

The reason that I'm hanging on

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I slowly drift my eyes open and I'm hit with the brightest lights, I shut my eyes quickly and I open them slowly again adjusting them to the light, when I get my eyes open and aware I don't remember where I am, am I still in the house? this doesn't look like our ceilings? I remember the events of last night as they flash through my head, I feel his punches and slaps gut me and they make me feel like I need to puke

I lift my body up as much as I can and I see the machines I'm connected to and I start to freak out, why am I in the hospital? did I pass out? I look around but I don't see a single person in sight which makes me worry, how did I get here? I don't recall anything after Patrick walked out on me

I remember me breaking up with him and he got angry, very angry, I look at my arms and I see the slashes from him in my biceps and small tiny cuts all over me from the broken glass he threw, I feel ugly from my wounds that he caused me inside and out

I examine my body that isn't covered by the hospital gown and I hear the door open, I see his tall figure and his dark hair, when he turns around I see his green eyes and he smiles at me, "good morning Goldie how are you feeling?" he asks in his soft tone and he sits on the edge of the bed

"g-good, why are you here?" I ask him in confusion, how did he find out I was here, did he find me at the house, did he call the ambulance? I ask myself these questions and he grabs my hand, "I'm here to comfort you, you had to go into surgery last night for your ribs, they're all better now but they weren't" he mumbles and I look into his captivating eyes, "how did you find me?" I ask him and he looks back down to the center of my hand drawing circles on the back of my hand as well

"Ember found you, she used your phone to call me and I came as fast as I could" he whispers and I hear a crack in his voice, "I thought you were gone Goldie" he says looking up at me and I can see his blood shot eyes, he hasn't slept at all

"I saw you lying on the ground of your kitchen, you were unconscious and I saw the cuts and bruises all over you...I've never felt an anger consume me like that..I-I wanted to kill him Esme" he mumbles and I shake my head, "he doesn't deserve your anger, m-my father before he passed, he would always always say, loving is the antidote, use your love to overpower the hate you hold for him" I say softly and he smiles

"My golden girl how I've missed your voice" he mumbles and I smile at his words, they make me feel warm

I pat the spot next to me and he scoots closer to my side laying down next to me, our legs touching, I lean my head on his shoulder as he plays with my hand and I sigh, "what are we going to do when I get out of here?" I ask him and he doesn't say anything, "you can live with me or Ember, and he won't come near you again without one of us I'll make sure of that" he says sternly and I nod, "your leaving for tour in less than three weeks though" I say and he smirks at me, he turns his body to me and he looks into my eyes

"come with us" I hear the words come out of his mouth and my eyes widen, go with him on tour? I barely know him...I know I feel a connection but it's soon

"I-I don't know-" I start but he smiles, "you could work on your music on tour and we could record, I need to record our second album as well, Winnie could come to help you and it could get you away from him" he says listing off the great reasons and I smile

"can I get back to you in a few days?" I ask him and he nods, "take all the time you need love" he smiles and I lean my head on his shoulder once again, "I'm glad your here smiley" I say his nickname and I feel his lip press against my shoulder, "I'm glad I'm here too" he mumbles and I close my eyes

a few seconds of silence later I hear the door open once again and I see what I presume to be my doctor, "Hi Esme how are you?" I see the tall man ask me and I nod, "I'm good just tired" I mumble and he nods, "good news, only your ribs we're broken and we fixed them, its a 3 month recovery and you just need to rest no physical therapy is needed as long as you are active, your cuts and bruises have been taken care of, we had to stitch up your eyebrow since the cut was so deep" he says explaining what my injuries were and I nod listening to his voice and Harry rubs his soft fingers in a circle on the back of my hand

"Other than that you should be all good to leave tonight, we need to run a few more tests and then after your free to leave, I'll send in your friends now" he says and I tilt my head, friends? the only friend I have is Ember

I first see Ember walk in with her short blonde hair and she smiles almost attacking me and I groan as she hugs me tight, she pulls away and gives me a sympathetic look, I smile and she sits down on the edge of the bed where Harry was, I see Louis walk in close behind her and he sits on one part of the couch I have in this room

I see Niall, Zayn, and Liam walk in as well they sit next to Louis on the couch and they talk to each other, they know each other? I didn't know that

Niall looks over to me and he stands up, "I know none of us have really talked to you but we do know that Patrick is an asshole, no one deserves this we're sorry" he says speaking for all of them and they nod behind him, I smile lightly and he sits back down

"thank you all for being here you didn't have to come but I'm glad you did, it means a lot" I mumble and I see Liam smile, Harry leans his head on my shoulder now and I tie my hair up into a bun getting it out of my face, Ember takes my hand and I see her getting teary-eyed, "Es I didn't know if I would ever get to see my best friend again, it scared me so much" she says and I nod, "I'm sorry he put you through this" she says and I shrug, "it makes me stronger Em" I smile and she shakes her head, "misses bright side always" she says and I giggle

"I missed your laugh" she says and I look down, "I was only asleep for a couple of hours" I say and she shakes her head, "couple hours too long" she says and I squeeze her hand, "we're gonna let you sleep, we'll be back in a couple of hours" she says and they all stand up except for Harry he stays laying next to me which I'm fine with

they all walk out of the room and Harry looks at me, "go to sleep love" he mumbles and I nod, "I'm scared" I mumble and he opens his eyes again looking towards me, "why is that" he asks and I shrug, "I'm scared of Patrick" I say and he nods, "he put you through something traumatic of course you're going to be scared of him, it's okay" he says and I sigh, "I'm here Esme nothing bad is going to happen, dream of the stars" he says and I smile closing my eyes, "goodnight smiley" I whisper softly and he chuckles, "goodnight Goldie" he whispers and I can tell he's falling asleep as well

I'm not just scared of Patrick I'm scared of a lot of this, I'm scared to fall in love again, I'm scared to be touched by people, I'm scared to leave this hospital, I'm scared to get my heartbroken, I'm scared to say yes to going on tour, I'm scared to write music, I'm scared of talking to my mother, but I know I have my dad and Harry that are here with me always, my smiley and my rock always

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