61. Test of my patience

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Esme

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Esme

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We'll be a fine line

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I feel myself drift awake, I open my eyes to darkness, the room I'm in is pitch black 

I try to get up but when I move I hear chains move with me, I look down to my wrists and I see a pair of cuffs on me

so I scream, as loud as I can but it does nothing, I twist my wrists but they burn at the contact with the metal handcuffs making my skin grow raw 

"someone help!" I scream again and I hear a laugh come from the other side of the room, I flinch at the sound of the man 

I see the outline of the man come towards me and I turn away to what seems to be a corner of the room, I hear his footsteps grow louder and I twist my wrists again hoping that they will break and I'll be free 

"hello darlin" I hear Matthews voice creep up behind me and I close my eyes, "face me esme" he says but I don't listen 

I feel his grimy finger touch my body and he flips me towards him, I can see his face clear now as he holds up a lighter that lights up just the middle of his face 

"Why am I here?" I ask and he stares at me, "because you took something from me, important things" he says and I scoff 

"the polaroids of the kids you've done unspeakable things to right?" I snap and he snaps right back slapping me in my face, I yelp at the contact and I feel the stinging sensation rise 

"don't speak to me like that" he says with his serious tone and I look away from his eyes 

"you might be able to be released if you give me back what you stole" he smiles and I shake my head 

"well if you wont I guess you'll stay here with me, I know we'll have a fun time" he smirks and I cringe at his words 

what would he do to me? 

"you can't-" I start but he cuts me off and place his hand on my bare thigh

when was I undressed?, I look down and I see just my bra and underwear are left and I feel the tears start to well up 

"can't what esme?" he smirks and I shake my head 

"please, please don't" I cry out and he laughs in my face 

"oh, that makes me want to do it even more" he shrugs and I see him pull out a blade, he presses it to my bare stomach and I turn my head away 

"look at the knife esme" he says but I don't listen and I feel him puncture my skin and I suck in a breath and I see the blade 

"good, now watch" he demands and I do 

I see the blade enter my stomach and I hunch over in pain making the blade go deeper in my skin

I scream out and he smiles, "Matthew, please- please stop!" I yell and he pulls the blade out of me, I see the blood gush out and I start to feel very light headed 

"Esme... never forget how powerful I'll always be" he whispers and jabs the same blade into my thigh making me flinch in pain 

"Fuck!" I weep out and I know he's smirking, I feel the knife leave me and I see him stand up, "I'll see you in a few hours esme, if your still alive" he says the last words and I feel a shiver run up my spine 

I let out my first breath when I hear the door shut and I start to cry, I cry so hard that I feel like I might pass out, or that might be from the loss of blood 

I feel my body hit the ground and I look up at the ceiling, its a pit of black 

It's sort of calming, like I could think for once

I stare for a while and I start to sing a melody that came to me, I sing it over and over again for what feels like hours 

and then a line comes to me, and I sing it so quietly I can barely hear it myself 

I feel my hand press to my thigh and I feel the pool of blood I'm laying in and I feel sticky, I bring my hand up to my face and I see the blood drop down to my forehead and I bring my hand back down 

"we'll be a fine line" I think the line over and over again a million times and more words form in my brain to make little sentences 

"spreading you open", "is the only way of knowing you" 

I whispers to myself and it makes me happy, hopefully if I get out of here I'll remember the sentences to write down in my journal 

"We'll be alright" I whisper and I hear the door open again

has it been hours? 

"Esme, your still alive" I hear Matthews words and I cringe, I see the lighter again and I see an outline of a body next to him 

but when I see his face I know that I'm fucked 

Patrick 

"hello Essie" he smiles and I feel the tears leave my eyes, I feel Matthew sit me up and I shiver at his touch 

"you've lost a lot of blood" I hear Patrick say and I see them sit down in front of me 

"why are you guys here" I whisper and I see Patrick look at Matthew and for a split second I see a little remorse but that goes out the window 

"to hurt you of course" Patrick smiles and I feel my stomach sink 

"Patrick please-" I whisper but he's on top of me already and I groan at his weight on mine 

I see the blade from earlier, it's clean now 

Patrick brings it up to my jawline and he presses the knife into the skin of my jawline cutting me slightly and I whimper out, then he moves to the top part of my cheek and he does it again 

"I'm begging you to stop" I cry out and he stops and looks at me 

"do it again, beg for me" he smirks and I feel the bile rise in my throat, "Please Patrick I'll do anything" I whisper and he stares at me for a long second and he laughs 

bringing the knife into the side of my ribcage and I fall flat on the ground and they laugh together like it's some sort of father- son bonding 

I hear something at the door but it's distant and Patrick and Matthew both turn towards each other like something is wrong and I feel hope as Matthew walks to the door 

my eyes start to close and I try and force myself to stay awake 

I see the door open and I see his green eyes and I've never felt more scared and happy at the same time 

but I feel the blood loss get to me and everything goes black 

but just for a second  

I saw my smiley 



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Hi goldies, I'm sad 

we only have 3 chapters and an epilogue left 

wtf :( 

I love you all so much 

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