Things to say, to feel while writing, I don't know how to feel anymore.
So many thoughts in my head it's getting hard to keep up with them all.
It's like gears in my head working 24/7 at high speed then when it becomes to much to handle, STOP!
I take a few steps back, breathing in and out
"You'll be okay" I tell myself "one step at a time"
Sometimes the breathing doesn't work and the. I just crash, my system malfunctions.
These things come at random now, I'm not used to them.
It's hard to cope with it all, hard to accept who I really am in my head.
But I'm trying to make these moments better.
