#1
The tingling feeling of another's fingers
Dance on my cold skin
Was it to prove to others they were wrong?
What a big price I had to pay.
Did it hurt you after what you did?
Used me and tossed me away?
Do you even have any thought of the damage you did afterwards?
It was good I can give you that...at least.
Maybe I should have told you, but I was afraid.
So who's fault was it?
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#2
Was it okay to betray your blood?
Was it okay to stab me in the back?
Was it okay?
We were family, you were my brother and I was your sister.
It hurt more than a bullet to the heart.
Mental wounds are the ones that last longer.
I felt comfortable with hiding my secrets with you, just for you to go behind my back and hurt me even more than what you've already done.
It wasn't okay.
Shit hurt me more than you can imagine.
Are we still family?
NO.
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#3
I stayed there laying above the twinkling stars that are on the night sky.
It reminds me of your eyes when they look at me.
Is it admiration?
Is it love?
Is it curiosity?
You stayed there, looking at me as I smiled like a fool.
I felt at peace when you look at me like that.
It gives me hope that it, us, can last.
That we can make this endless trip together.
But I was wrong.
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#4
Changing,
For him,
For me,
For them.
Trying,
To please him,
To please myself,
To please them.
Failed,
To be perfect for him,
Perfect for me,
Perfect for them.
