TW: abuse, swearing, self-harm (scratching), self-harm mentions and intentions (cutting), panic attack, mentions of rape
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Okay, back to the story...
One year and eight months before the day
Megumi's POV
Fear... Fear... Am I scared?... It seems so... Where am I?
"Megumi! You will regret hiding yourself as soon as I find you" am I hiding? I don't know...It's dark... and cold.
Suddenly a light illuminates the small closet where I was hiding
"I found you little shit" oh I can already remember why I am afraid... I am here again.
"NO! Don't touch Megumi, I stole it, he didn't do anything" sister.
She is always defending me... I hate it when she does that, she just puts herself in danger. I should be the one protecting her...
"I don't care, you two are pests and now you are going to be punished!"
I feel a hand grab my fragile arm like an animal grabs its prey. I feel my mouth dry and the waves of fear run through my body
"please don't" my eyes fill with tears when I see her holding the wooden board that causes me so much pain "please..."
I wake up with a start, clutching the blankets as if my life depends on it. It was just a dream.
Just a dream... A memory actually...
But why did I have to remember that now?
I look around when I realize that I am not in my bed.
Oh yeah...Yesterday I fell asleep watching the movie with Itadori. He must have gone to bed...
What time is it? I take my phone from the small coffee table and see that it is 3:46 am.
I shouldn't be here... I should be helping Itadori and instead I'm on his couch giving him more work.
I rest my arm on my forehead and let out a breath.
When I pick up the phone again I notice that my hands are shaking and that I am in cold sweat.
Oh no. Not here, not now.
I can't have a panic attack at Itadori's house while he is sleeping.
There is only one thing that helps me when I'm like this... Sorry Yuji.
I get up with some effort trying to control my breathing and starting to scratch my scarred arm making it bleed. Crap. I need something sharper.
As soon as I get to the kitchen I see the thing I least expected.
Itadori sitting on the window looking at the sky.
I put a hand on the counter to stand and watch the boy in front of me.
His hair was disheveled by the wind and his eyes shone with the reflection of the stars.
Without realizing it, a tear ran down my cheek and my breathing started to calm down. I don't think he even noticed that I am here... I look at my hand that was right next to a knife...
I could take it and go... he wouldn't notice...
No. I can't. Not with him.
"Hey" I whisper
He doesn't move.
He keeps his eyes fixed on the sky as if that is the most interesting thing in the world.
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