Fill the silence | Itafushi

Loud Girl

TW: swearing, mentions of rape, mentions of self-harm (cuts and scars), mentions of fight

The more detailed parts about the self-harm scars and cuts will be in between ### for the people that feel uncomfortable.

One year and eight months before the day

Megumi's POV

I wake up with discomfort in my back and my arm is numb.

I open my eyes and rub them with my free hand, as the other hand seems to be grabbed by something.

After a few minutes of trying to adjust to the sunlight that comes in through the poorly closed curtains of the room, I remember everything that happened yesterday.

Apparently I managed to sleep after a few hours.

I look to the side where the colored-haired boy was grabbing my hand as if his life depended on it.

I adjust my position a little and see his eyes slowly open and look at me.

Shit, I didn't want to wake him up.

"I'm sorry" I say quietly "It's still early you can go back to sleep" I say calmly.

He just closes his eyes again and puts his head deeper into his pillow, holding my hand tighter.

I just stay there and watch him.
I won't be able to go back to sleep even if I want to and I don't have my phone so I can't do anything more than let my thoughts invade me while I watch my friend half asleep.

I look at his room. Even though I came here a few times, I almost never go into his room.

It was a simple room, a double bed, a desk with a few scattered books and papers, a cupboard, a bedside table with a small lamp and his cell phone on top of a book with a strange cover and on the bed his weird plushie with boxing gloves.

Today I have work and classes... And so does he.

Obviously none of us will go since he is certainly not in the mood for it and I cannot leave him alone.

Gojo must come here looking for me when he realizes that I left my backpack in his car and that I didn't go to work... I look again at the boy next to me.

His pink hair fell slightly in his eyes and he looked calmer.
Suddenly he lets go of my hand and turns to the other side.

What happened? He's not sleeping so why did he turn around so suddenly? Maybe he felt uncomfortable because I was looking at him...But he had his eyes closed, how come he knew I was watching him?

"You can go to school if you want..." he says calmly in a sleepy voice "I know you always wake up at the same time so now it must be time to go to school" he speaks again

How did he remember that? I only told him that I wake up at this hour when we both stayed at Junpei's house and that was some time ago.

"I'll stay here" I say calmly.

He doesn't move.
"You don't have to. I'm fine" Yeah of course you are, and I am the Queen of England.

"No, you're not" I reply, keeping my tone calm. This time he doesn't respond, we just stay there without saying anything.

After an hour he fell asleep and I get up, since that he is not holding me now, and I head towards the bathroom to take a shower.

I run a hand through my disheveled hair and bend down to pick up a towel under the sink.

I put it on the toilet seat next to the shower and start to undress, unrolling the bandages in my arms.

Turning on the water in the shower I look at my arms while I wait for it to warm up.