I wake up with a jolt as the annoying sound of my alarm clock echoes across the room. By touch I try to stop the piercing jingle with my hand. When I feel the cold metal of the clock, I give a hard tap pressing the button on the top, before slumping back into the pillows with a deep sigh.
For a few more minutes I lie dazed, my eyes still squeezed shut, trying to convince myself to get out of bed. After a few more deep sighs, I throw my legs over the edge and stand up. I stretch to my wardrobe, where I stand for a moment while my brain tries to figure out which outfit I will wear today. In the end I opt for my dark blue jumpsuit with my beige wedge sandals.
Then I continue to the door in the corner of the from the hallway, that leads to the bathroom. When I close the door behind me and turn around, I am startled by my own reflection in the mirror. I look awful, but that's not too crazy. I hardly sleep anymore and when I sleep I dream about Beca. Dreaming about Beca is not exactly a good dream because every time I see her being carried away by the current of the water, along with my ring.
I sigh as I splash some water in my face. I had so many plans with Beca but my life has been changed ever since I got Ryan.
Ryan, I must be strong for him. I've cried too many times standing in front of him. He must think I'm unhappy. When I discovered I was pregnant, I was determined to have an abortion, but when I saw the first ultrasound ... I just could not. I visited Chicago to tell him I was pregnant and he was silent. I can still remember what he said; Well, uhm, okay. Are you sure you took the test right? He wanted so badly that it was fake news, but it wasn't. My mind flips back to the rest of the conversation; ,,Yes Chicago, it's really simple." He sighed.
,,Yeah, I know it's easy. But it was just a one-night stand."
,,As if I do not know that." I sit down while he still pacing around. ,,We were drunk and did not use protection. Most of the time when a boy and a girl have sex without a condom, the girl ends up pregnant."
,,So what do you want to do?"
,,I don't know. What do you wanna do?"
,,Look, I don't know." Now he sits next to me. ,,I just found out. You're the girl, don't you get to decide?"
,,Great, so it's all on me?"
,,No! No, I didn't mean -" Chicago rubs his forehead. ,,Shit. Should we get married?"
,,Shit, should we get married?" I feel tears in my eyes prick. He looks at me.
,,Well I'm sorry Chloe, I just try to do the right thing here. I didn't mean to -" I stand up frustrated.
,,Then don't ask the wrong questions! I - just forget that I said anything." He stands up. ,,Just forget it, cause I'll figure it out. It's not your problem." I start to walk away.
,,Chloe." I turn around.
,,It's fine, I have to go anyway." And then I just left him.I sigh while getting back to reality. After my encounter with Chicago I went to Aubrey. She helped me through everything and because of her Chicago and I came out of everything. He visit us for two weeks a year and bought us a house. Chicago is a very good father, but I miss Beca so much!
I finish up my make-up and walk downstairs to make some bacon and eggs. Ryan love those. I still can't believe how smart he is. When Aubrey and I saw his first 4D ultrasound, the doctors told me he had a 94% brain capacity, which is normally 50%. It's a little genius. It's the reason that he can speak more than other children from his age and that he's quick to learn.
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Love never dies
Roman pour AdolescentsOne boating disaster changed Chloe's life forever, the love of her life disappeared into the ocean right before her eyes that night and took most of Chloe's heart with her, while Chloe was rescued out of the water a little later after that. Struck w...