When Fate Entwines

Chapter 12 :) xxx

"Stop saying nonsense things Zayn" I said harshly.

Why am I saying this? I want to be with him right? My pride is so high right now.

"I'm not even joking" he said stubbornly like a child doubting about his new tantrum.

"I'm done cleaning you I have to go home" I said while I close the first aid kit.

Where do I think I'm going? I live here and I have no place to go. I wanted to be alone right now to think about things. My mind is full of knotted lines!

Zayn gripped my wrist.I looked at him with full of anger.

"Please stay with me , I want to explain" He said it with completely low voice.

His voice was so convincing but I need to clear my mind.

I shoved his hand " I don't want to hear your lies again, I have enough."

I run at the entrance door. I opened it hurriedly and saw the rain falling really hard. I have no choice. I walk outside and the rain drops are starting to wet my dress ,then my hair ,then my stilettos and my whole body..my dress is getting heavy now.Thanks God, I wear a waterproof make up.I feel someone is following me so I ran quickly the footsteps on my back is running too. This person might do something bad to me but I'm defenseless right now..Why does bad fortune is with me tonight. Someone hugged me from behind. He- she putted his or her arms around my neck. He has a firm arm so I know it's a man.

"Don't leave me (Y/N)," It's Zayn. He followed me until here. He also is dripping wet like me.

"It's okay if I lost my mirror, comb, popularity or even career tonight. I still can handle it but if you're leaving me tonight, don't I can't handle it..I really really love you (Y/N)" he whispered it tenderly in my ear.

I face him. He's still holding my hands. I have millions of questions to ask him. I looked at him, his eyes are searching mine.

"If you love me, then why did you chose her?" Yeah, I'm referring to Perrie.

"I chose her not because my heart tells me to but my mind asked for it" he said looking to my eyes.

"I can't understand Zayn, please explain" I think I have a guts now to hear his explanations.

"Thank you for allowing me to explain" then he told me the story.

What?the management pulled them together?huh? I just can't accept it!

"Then, why didn't you tell me that sooner? So that I didn't get hurt, so I didn't suffer those sleepless nights thinking about you!so that my pillows didn't get wet because of my tears every night!So that I didn't force myself to move on and love another man!" I shouted.

"I did that for your privacy! So you won't get hates and be hurt" He explained.

"Do you think that I have my privacy now?NO! Because they kept questioning why did we broke up! Why did you date Perrie right after we split! Why did I left you! You're saying me that I don't get hates? NO! I got one hundred times more hates than before, they said that I leave you and I just date you for fame! And you did that so I won't get hurt? No again, you've hurt me a lot when I saw you kissing another girl. You know what kept me going? You..because I love you Zayn! But you've lied to me.. Now I know.. I don't know if your love to me was fake" My tears betrayed me they flow freely at my eyes like they kept a hundred years.

He squeezed my hands but not too hard.

"I'm so sorry if I filled our relationship with lies.. Please, give me another chance to show you How much I love you and how much I'm truly sorry for what I've done.." He said calmly.

"No, Zayn.. I'm done hearing your lies again. I don't wanna listen anymore" I did said it clearly.

I don't really know what's coming out from my mouth. I'm tired.

"No please, I'm not a king to offer you jewelries and expensive things, Nor a god to give you the moon and stars, but I'm here at your front, Zayn Javadd Malik, ready to offer you my whole heart to love you endlessly with no doubts and with no exchange" He said sweetly while looking to my eyes.

He seemed sincere. My minds said " don't forgive him, he hurt you!" But my heart keeps shouting " forgive him, he's sincere on loving you" I'm so puzzled right now. I don't know where to go or who to listen.

I struggled my hands for escape but his hands are so strong "Leave me alone! I don't need you anymore Zayn!"

"If there are deadliest words in the world, that's the words you are saying right now" he sounds sad.

"I hate you Zayn Malik! So let go of me!" I said word by word.

"Look at me through the eyes and say that again" he's waiting for me to look at his beautiful eyes who are now crying.

I squeezed his hands, I hope he didn't notice and I look straightly in his eyes " I hate you! I don't want to see or even hear your voice again ever!satisfied now? So LET.GO.OF.ME!"

That was all a lie. Thanks to rain, he will not notice me that I'm crying. I think I don't need him. I don't want to get hurt. My mind is right, I shouldn't forgive him. I chose to close my heart now.

He loosen his gripped and places his hand in his sides and looked down. I was about to leave.

"I don't want to lose my hope because of that stupid lies coming out from your mouth, I know you're just lying, (Y/N) at least I'm not fool to know if you're lying or not!" He surprised me. How did he know?

I turned my back to him " oh, you have the guts to say that huh?"

"Say that clearly again after this" he pulled me against him, he puts his hand on my neck and he face it on him. His other hands on my face and he pulls it gently to his face. He brushed his lips against mine. I've been longing that soft sweet lips for a long time. With that kiss my pride,anger, hurt feelings, disappointments are all gone. My feelings to him came rushing back to my heart as fast as a beat.

I love him. I forgive him. I want him back. All of my feelings are now clear, I want him to be mine again

The kiss lasted almost a minute. I was so surprised that I was crying. Tears if joy, maybe? I broke the kiss and all I can say is: " Zayn, I'm so sorry... I really do love you and I forgive you"

We leaned at each others foreheads looking at our eyes and smiling. He pulled me for another kiss again.

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