Stars Aligned

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Lisa's pov

My phone rang, I quickly left for the staff room. I took it out from my pocket and smiled at the ID caller.
Me: Hey sis!
Sino: Hey, how are you?
Me: Oh you know me, all good how about you? How's the little guy?
Sino: I'm alright, he's good just a little naughty these days, he's growing so fast.
I laughed a little, then it was silent, I knew what was next and I dreaded it so much.
Sino: When are you coming home?
Me: Moana...
Sino: No seriously, it's been three years now, I don't understand why you away from your family, he's not even here anymore.
I wish I could tell her why, I wish she knew about Ronnie and understood my reasons for not wanting to go back.

Me: I'm at work, I'll call later?
Sino: You always at work! Fine, but call later I have something important to talk about, you gonna have to come home one way or another.
Me: Bye!
I disconnected the call, she always does this. Her calls are never just about anything but that thing! Sometimes it's infuriating having to deal with her many questions of why I can't come home. What home? The home I had is empty, and it's filled with contempt.
I sighed and put my phone at the back of my jeans. I walked out and as soon as I went to the dining area I got a customer. I took my notepad and walked over to the couple and smiled warmly at them.

***

Me: Betty.
I called out for her as soon as I opened the front door. I closed and locked the door, left the key at the door, for when Betty has to leave.
Betty: Over here!
She whisper yelled. I took off my shoes one by one as I walked to the living room. I saw Betty eating skittles with a sleeping Ronnie on the couch. I smiled at her.
Me: Hey.
Betty: Hey, you off early tonight.
Me: Yeah, Mam Zodwa had the kindest of hearts today and let us off early, how long has she been sleeping?
Betty: A little over 20 minutes, well I'm off, Brandon has been calling nonstop.
I sighed, and nodded. Brandon Stupid Marshall, I hated that guy.

He honestly doesn't deserve my friend, he treats her like trash but she doesn't see it or maybe she does just doesn't want to do anything that'll upset her parents since Brandon was their choice. I just wish for the day Betty finally finds happiness, when she breaks out of their clutches. She deserves better, especially with that big heart of hers.
Betty: See ya tomorrow sweetheart!
I walked her to the door, hugged her and waved as she walked to her house, it was not that far from mine. I locked and went back to the living room, I already ate I just needed sleep right now.

I took my baby and switched off the lights, went to our room and laid her down. She was still in her clothes, Betty probably didn't want to wake her up. I took her pajamas from the wardrobe and took off her clothes slowly and careful not to wake her up. As I clothed her, she stirred a bit, I smiled and continued anyways.
Ronnie: Mama?
Me: Yes baby?
She just put her hands out for me to take her as she laid on her back. I finished with her pajamas pants and laid her on her side of the bed.

I craned my arms to put out the stiffness. I was exhausted, thank goodness it was a Wednesday, just two more days and the weekend. I took off my clothes and wore the oversized t-shirt. It didn't even smell like him anymore, and the color was coming off. But it the second thing that I had of him, I loved it and I have been sleeping in it for the years that have passed. It's a little weird but I can't help it, except for Ronnie, this is one of his things that makes me feel close to him. I climbed on my side and face my little girl. As I took in her features, her plump lips, her father's nose and eyes. She had his hair too, what a waste. I carried this baby for nine months and she betrays me by looking like him, worse acts like him.

I laughed a little and kissed her forehead. I smiled to myself as a memory of three years back played in my mind.

We laid on the bed, naked and entangled in each other. I kept rubbing circles on his chest, while he tried to straightened my little short curls with his fingers.
Snakes: I want a baby girl.
Me: What are you talking about?
I said not paying much attention to him, but listening nonetheless. He took the hand I've been using to rub his chest in his large one.
Snakes: I want a mini you.
He said all of a sudden. I positioned myself to look up at him with a smile, it was sweet of him to want a mini me but I was not ready for that.
Snakes: I know you said you not ready and I'll accept that, but can't we just talk about it, I'll take a fantasy.

Me: I want a baby boy.
Deciding not to ruin the moment, I laid my head back on his chest. It was always nice being by him.
Snakes: Why a boy?
Me: A mini you of course, why else?
Snakes chest vibrated with his low chuckles. I smiled to myself, feeling content each time I feel him happy.
Snakes: My love, you can't even handle a whole me, can you survive with another me?
Me: Can't handle you? Please I got you wrapped around this little finger.
Snakes: Is that so? Prove it!
I sat up and wrapped the sheet around my upper body leaving him half naked and exposed.

Me: Fine, I'll prove it.
Snakes: Nothing you do will-
Me: I'm going out with the girls tomorrow.
Snakes: So?
Me: To a club.
Snakes: A club? What? No! Not happening!
Me: Why not?
Snakes: Because.
Me: That's not an answer!
Snakes: You just not going! A club! Is she serious?
He muttered more to himself. I smiled sideways to myself, I was not going to a club but I wanted to prove to him that he goes cockoo when he knows I'll not be by his side especially a place where it's full of men, very horny men at that.

When I didn't say anything his rambling about me wanting to go to a club stopped and he looked at me with a smirk and shook his head.
Snakes: Slick! You-
Me: I told ya I got you all here.
I gestured to my open palm in front of his face as I smirked down at him. He pulled me to lay on top of his chest. A squeal left my lips followed by a full on laughter as he tickled me.
Me: St-op it!
Snakes: Got me huh?
Me: Okay fine, you got me.
He stopped and looked at me intently. My laugh died down to a smile.

Snakes: Damn right I do, now you were saying something about a mini you.
He said as he flipped us over, I swear he has a stamina for days.

My memory ended, I wiped the tears that had fallen and looked up to whoever that's listening and pleading with my heart and eyes to please make the heartache go away, it's been too long and still the memories are as haunting and painful as the day I left, words couldn't come out.
Ronnie: Mama, why are cwaying?
I looked to the side to see Ronnie wide awake and looking cute as ever, her big doe eyes waiting for my answer.
Me: Mommy is fine baby, go back to sleep.
She crawled to my chest and slept on it. I held her tight. And sleep took over me too. This child was my pride and joy, and with that I slept with a small smile on my face.