Largely Submissive

Chapter 33

I've said this to my followers but I'll add it here for those of you who don't follow me. Sorry I've been MIA lately. My mental health hasn't been the best and I'm coming up to the end of my semester right now so I've been super stressed with school stuff. I'm hoping once my finals are done (last one is next Wednesday) I'll have some time before summer classes/my new job to work on LS. I'm not giving up on this book tho so don't worry guys

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Cameron's POV

Gavin was acting weird. During my break he dropped by the break room to say hello, and murder me with his lips I swear. I don't know what is going on but these kisses kept throwing me off. And then he left me again, with a boner, claiming he had things to do. What things are more important than a boner? My boner? I sighed. My shift was almost over and he said he was coming over tonight, so maybe he'd tell me then. 

What if... What if he wants to break up with me? End our contract? What if he found a different submissive...? I felt nauseous at the thought. I don't know what I was going to do if I had to watch him at the club with some other stupid submissive. No, that was mean. I wouldn't call them stupid because they were lucky enough to have what I couldn't. I would still hate them silently, though. I scratched at my arm. I didn't like thinking about this. It made me itchy.

I heard the side door to the club slam open and a couple of the regular dominants stepped out for a smoke. I quickly glanced over to see that Master Graham was with them. At first I didn't think Gavin was too, but then I saw him towards the back in a close conversation with another dominant. Casey, I think his name was. I quickly looked away before any of them could catch me staring. I tried to listen to what they were saying but I couldn't stop thinking about my possible break up.

"Hey, baby, are you okay?" Gavin asked, concerned.

I jumped and looked up in surprise. I hadn't even heard him come over. I quickly nodded and looked away chewing on my thumbnail. I didn't want him to know what I was thinking. What if he figured out I suspected he was going to break up with me and decided to just get it over with. I wanted at least one more night together before that. We didn't even need to have sex, I just wanted one more night of peaceful sleep while I could still get it. I was so caught up in that thought that I didn't notice him get closer until his hand was beneath my chin lifting it up so I had to lock eyes with him again.

"Baby what's wrong?" He asked more sternly, but somehow still concerned. I bit my lip. I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to break up. I didn't want to lose him. Not when he was the only person in years I felt this way about. Something in my facial expression must've worried him and before I knew it he had my radio and called Damien to cover the door for the last half hour of my shift. 

Damien came around the corner and Gavin immediately moved back towards the club, pulling me along. He must've given Damien some sort of look since he said nothing and just took my place. Gavin continued to pull me along until we were upstairs and in front of his private room. Deja vu hit me all of a sudden, even though I've never actually properly been here with him. He opened the door and ushered me in. He pulled me over to the bed and we sat down on the edge together. He looked at me once more. 

"Cameron. Tell me what you're thinking. What's wrong?" He commanded softly, caressing my hand with him. I had to stifle a whimper. Before I could stop myself, I slid down on my knees in front of him and bent my head.

"Please don't break up with me," I begged softly. I heard a gasp above me. Gavin held my cheeks in both of his hands and pulled my face up. He looked down at me with an indiscernible look. 

"What?" He asked.

"Please don't break up with me. I don't know what I did, but I'll be good. I'll try to be better. I love you, please don't leave me," I embarrassingly begged. I could feel my lip trembling but I refused to let any tears shed. 

"Oh, my baby. I don't know what made you think I was going to break up with you. I would never, ever Cameron, end our relationship without properly consulting you. I never plan to end this relationship. I love you too, Cameron. So, so much. I was trying to plan some special way to really show you my love, but I scared you, huh," He said pulling me up so I was cradled against his chest. I tucked my head into his neck and wrapped my arms tightly around his torso. A traitor sniffle left me. I felt one of Gavin's hands running through my hair. Wait. I pulled back. What did he just say?

"You... You love me?" I asked, surprised. I just realized what he had said. He grinned at me. 

"You caught that, huh? So much baby, it scares me sometimes," He admitted as he pulled my face closer. He pulled me in for a kiss and I leaned in immediately. Here I was kneeling in between his legs while he sat on the bed in his playroom, us kissing. Somehow this felt familiar even though we had never done this before. Not here at least. (A/N: (; )

"Come on baby, let's go home," He said finally pulling away. I never understood how he could do that. Just talk after kissing like that. I was always breathless. He smiled down at me and held his hand down to help me up. We got back up together, and he pulled me close for a quick peck on the lips. He pulled away and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, leading me out of the room. He lead me straight to the parking lot in the back, to his car.

"I'll text Graham that we're leaving your car here. He won't care," He said, holding the door open for me. I nodded silently and got in. He leaned down and did my seatbelt for me. Kissing me quickly on the lips before he stood back up and closed my door. He got in the driver's side and turned on his car. He looked at me once more, with a soft smile, before buckling up and leaving the parking lot. He grabbed my hand and held it while he drove us back to my apartment. 

I can't believe this man loves me....

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Hey I know... took me forever. Honestly I just didn't how to end this chapter. Tbh I'm not sold on this ending either but I wanted to update for you guys. (:

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