Are You The One?

Chapter 11: Ungreatful Girl

Loki's POV

I tried my whole life to be perfect, to be the best son, brother, and prince I could be. Unfortunately vengeance took over my soul and made me do the unspeakable. I betrayed my family, my brother, several times.
Even though he claimed to love me and want me by his side, I still betrayed him. I tried to kill the Avengers. I killed innocent mortals when I tried to take over New York.
The assassination of my mother was practically my fault. I even killed my own entire species. Jötunn.

Jötunn...

I am Jötunn and the last.

I'm a nobody. I'm practically a monster. How could anyone want me at all?

I sat on the couch as I pondered hard about my life choices. Honestly, if I would write down all the mistakes that I've done in my life, I'd probably make a series of books. It was the middle of the night so no one read alone to see me wander alone in the Stark Tower or to see me thinking.

Oh shut it, Loki.
You're being vulnerable again.

It's been 5 solid weeks since Heather's arrival and everyone absolutely loves her. Tony and Bruce are still doing research on her powers but they haven't found anything yet. I didn't tell them about alcohol being her weakness, I promised her not to tell a soul. I did assure them they have nothing to worry about, Heather is a gentle woman. I'm sure she wouldn't do anything to harm us.

I sure hope so at least.

I can't believe she already demonstrated the Avengers that she is someone they could trust. Shes always going to these events with Natasha called "girl night outs", whatever that means. She also loves to watch mortal films in that flat box on the wall in the livingroom with the spider boy. Thor has been of course, more distanced from her since my last encounter with him but I mean, it'll pass. Hehe

Heather has also been training with Natasha and Clint every morning and they say she's very agile and strong. She keeps her powers to herself, unless someone asks. She has advanced fighting skills which everyone just seems to acknowledge, but where did she learn them? Everyone agrees for her to be very normal in all ways, but I see more.

I walked to my room and shut the door.

"Being alone really does sting the heart huh.", I said to myself, pacing around my room then suddenly stop my steps. I slowly walked to my balcony, viewing the dark night sky being illuminated by the New York building lights. That wasn't what I was paying attention to though.

It was Heather's balcony that always lifted my curiosity. So I shapeshifted into a crow and flew up there.

Who leaves their balcony open at night?

As soon as I landed I transformed back to myself. I turned to the her bed and there she was...

She even looks like a princess when she sleeps.

Then I heard footsteps in back of me.

Shit.

I froze.

Why would someone else be here ?

"Um w-what are you doing here?", a gentle voice said towards my back.

I slowly turned around. It was her. Heather. In a confused state of shock I turn around back to the girl on the bed, but she was gone. She had cloned herself into tricking me she was asleep.

Ah, so this is what Thor feels when I do this to him.

Makes sense.

"I said, what are you doing here?", she raised her voice a little. Her eyes were a light bloodshot red, her voice a bit wobbly. She'd been crying.

"Are you alright?", I said as I came closer to her. She looks down and closed her eyes, she doesn't move.

"I'm sorry for intruding I just wanted to-", I stopped.

What the hell am I gonna tell her? Oh, I just wanted to watch you sleep like the damn creep I am.

"-I sort of felt lonely in a way. I just wanted some company and wondered if you were up", I said looking at her watery dark brown eyes.

Part of that was in fact true, I was truly was lonely. Yes, I might have my brother but when I'm with Heather, it's like I could tell her all my life's story.

"I'm lonely too.", she suddenly wrapped her arms around my waist, holding me tightly. I feel her breathing heavily.

"W-what troubles you my dear?", I stutter, helping her sit on the bed and sat next to her.

"My past", she practically whispers then looks at me, her response caught me off guard.

What could possibly make her this sad?

"What about it dear? You can tell me anything.", I wrapped my arm over her shoulders. She leaned towards me to put her head on my chest.
I just noticed that all I had on was normal mortal clothes, jeans and a grey hood with no shirt under. I felt naked, exposed.

"Loki I know you don't talk much about your life but I do know you."

Me?

"What does that have to do with you though?", I question as I slowly grabbed her hand.

"We're both the same in a way, so I think you know how I'm feeling.", her words again keep surprising me.

The same? Us?

"I doubt that dear, you couldn't possibly be as bruised as I am." I laugh a bit as if it were a horrid contest.

"What? Are you kidding me?!", she raised her voice at me breaking away from me and standing up.

Crap, I offended her.

"-no I meant, gods, I-I'm sorry!", I raised my voice in guilt, trying to make her feel better but it seemed not to work. She was already in more tears, the complete opposite of what I'd thought she'd do.

"Mortals d-don't ever understand, i-it's alright."

A Mortal?

"I'm a god. I'm not a puny mortal.", I said coldly.

"Will you die eventually in your lifespan?"

"W-well not in another few thousands of years.", I stuttered realizing that I one day I really am mortal.

"Then you are mortal.", she said looking down and wiping her tears off of her delicate red cheeks.

"Then are you not?", I ask standing up in front of her and slowly reached for her hand again.

"I'm immortal Loki. I could never die, and yet it's something I could never live with anymore."

Not want immortality?! Is she crazy?! Why the hell would you not want such ability, such power?!

I took that personally. I suddenly took off my hands from hers, making her let out a small gasp. My hands formed into fists and I clenched my jaw as hard as I could. I could feel my blood boiling on the inside, in fury.

My reflex automatically made my hand reach her throat and pull her closer, inches away from my face. She gave me a scared look, gasping for air, she waited to see what I said next.

"How could you say that, you ungrateful girl.", I said heartlessly and it finally hit me.

I am a monster...