Vinnie Hacker imagines yk

Gun🔫

I def don't have a good mood rn so Im writing something sad 😃👍🏼
Don't worry tho , the ending is kinda happy
tiktokswayboys123 's request
Thank you for understanding and here it is , I hope you like it
warning: $uicide attempt  , talking of depression
I'm not gonna talk about that prank , I feel to bad for Vinnie and Natty I just don't have energy to talk about it , I just hope people will understand that one day Vinnie , like a normal human , will have a family and kids
Also , I can't wait for the pics from the photoshoot , Vinnie literally looks like a God and I cant wait for them , I can't explain how much I love how Vinnie looks in that , he's literally flawless 🤌🏻
dailyvinnie on ig for the pic

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Y/n's pov
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I have been depressed since I was 16 and now I'm 18. Vinnie , my boyfriend has helped me a lot , he understood because he also dealt with this , he is always here for me.
I had a period when I was feeling really bad and I tried to kill myself , but I failed. Then I meet Vinnie , that made me laugh , and feel special , I was feeling loved
It all started when I was in high school , when I had to change schools , where people weren't that friendly. They used to make my life hell , I was always minding my business but they would always find something to bully me
Then , I was coming home where my parents used to do almost the same thing. They were disappointed cause I didnt have that big marks or because I didn't tidy up my room , or didn't wash the dishes. I barely had energy to live and they were mad because I didn't clean my room , only if they would ask how I was, or maybe why I don't have that big marks
And when they saw I did self harm they grounded me , didn't even try to talk to me
It was all pain (😃👍🏼) I didn't see any point in trying
Vinnie was the only person that believed in me , that helped me , he made e feel that i'm worth it
But lately, after we made our relationship public , I started to receive again a lot of hate , that made me think that there is no point in trying and ending it sooner it will make everything better
I know me and Vinnie agreed to talk about our feelings and not hide them , but I can't talk with him. I just cant . I don't feel like making him sad just because of my problems, I think that he struggled a lot plus that he took care of me a lot , he did to much
After I meet him I never thought I will try to kill myself again , but I guess here I am

3 days ago
I was looking through the wardrobe to grab a hoodie  when I found a small metal box
Weird
I open it to reveal a gun.I guess Vinnie has a gun for safety , I think he mentioned this a long time ago but I don't think I paid attention to it

now
Vinnie's currently out with some friends. I try my best to not seem suspicious so he won't worry about me so I seem happy and normal around him
I have my legs bend to my chest as I sob
It's all pain , I'm trapped in this black hole once again and I don't think I can escape it anymore , maybe this is how It was meant to be , I guess not all of us are meant to live 60+ years
It's not worth it , why would I continue if there's nothing to fight for , maybe Vinnie , he's the only person that kept me alive and he's the only one that s in my head when I have dark thoughts. Thinking of him struggling to move on from me gives me a little bit of hope , but now I just think I can't do it.
I grab fast a piece of paper and a pen , I can't just end it all without saying anything to Vinnie

Dear Vinnie,

I don't know if you'll ever read this , but here it is
I'm sorry cause this is how it ends , I'm really sorry cause I broke the promise , I just can't tell you all of my problems , you'll probably worry to much about me and it's not worth it
Please , never blame yourself for this , you helped me a lot , more then you think , and please move on you deserve to be happy
I love you a lot and I'll love you forever , even if you won't see me , I will be with you and I promise I'll take care of you as much as you took care of me
I love you
Take care of you I love you forever,
Y/n

I wipe fast my tears , I hate to do this and I never thought I will do it , but I cant , I just cant
Just thinking that Vinnie will come home and will see my dead body breaks me , I wish I could hug him one more time , I wish I could tell him how much he means to me and how much he helped me , but I can't , it's now or never
I fold the letter and put it in the box , instead of the gun
I enter the bathroom and stand in front of the mirror
« I was never enough and I will never be » I think

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Vinnie's pov
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I was out with the boys. Even if I didn't feel like going out , I could't dump them in the last moment
So I left earlier. I was just happy to arrive home and cuddle with Y/n. She seemed a little off this morning and I feel a little guilty that I had to leave her , but now I'm on my way home
I enter the house and call her name , no response
Well , I guess she maybe is asleep. I make my way to our room and see she's not in the bed. Maybe she's in the bathroom? I think and then I hear a click that confirmed she's in the bathroom
After some seconds I realize that it wasn't just a sound
« No , no this can't be , no , I'm probably overreacting or something » I say in my head as I walk worried to the bathroom
Normally I wouldn't invade her space but now that I heard a sound that seemed to be loading a gun , I can't just stand here
I open slowly the bathroom door , just to see something I wish I never did , not even in the worst nightmare
« Ba- baby » I stutter and I see how she opens her eyes. She looks at me through the mirror , making my heart break
« Put that down please » I say softly, scared that she would pull the trigger in the next second
« Please » I say and I watch how she hesitatingly moves the gun from her chin to the counter
I walk slowly behind her and I wrap my hands around her waist
She puts her hands on my arms in the next second , breaking down
I spin her , now her head laying on my chest as she sobs
« I can't » she says through sobs
« I can't do it » she continues
« Shhh » I say trying to calm her down
« Why did you try to do this , why » I say almost whispering while I rub her back
« I can't live without you , I can't lose you » I say , my voice cracking at a point
I love her so much , I can't lose her. I wish she would come to me and talk to me instead of doing this. I understand her , I understand what she's going through but I wish she wouldn't try to kill herself one more time
She holds me tight, and I do the same , at this point we are both crying. I try to be strong for her , but I'm as sensitive as her , thinking that if I wouldn't come earlier I would probably find her dead makes my heart breaks in million pieces.
As I see she calmed down I start caressing her head and I 'drag' her out of the bathroom and I lay on the edge of the bed , holding her on my lap. Her arms are wrapped around my neck as I hear sniffles from her from time to time
« Baby , please promise me you won't do this ever again. Never ever , please. Whatever is going on just tell me , I won't ever judge you and I would be here for you no matter what. Please , I can't leave without you, please , I love you so much » I say begging at this point  
« I love you too » she says
I raise my pinky waiting for her
She raises her pinky wrapping it around my finger
« Promise » she mumbles
« Are you hungry? » I ask her
« No , I just wanna rest » she says
I get her off of my lap and she lays on the bed
I spoon her wrapping my arm around her waist not wanting to let her ever go
Soon , I hear snores coming from her
I brush some hair from her face and I kiss ker cheek sighing
I slowly leave the bed and enter the bathroom
I grab the gun from the counter. Then I grab the box from the closet and leave the bedroom going to the leaving room
I open the box and see a letter
I take it out anticipating what is it , but before I open it I place the gun inside and lock it this time. I hide it in the living room , where Y/n hopefully won't find it again
Then I return on the couch and I unfold the letter
Yes , it is what I thought it is
I read it feeling tears brimming my eyes. I was so close to losing her , it's unbelievable. I rip the paper hoping I won't ever read something like this
I put my head in my hands letting all the tears fall
I manage to calm myself, I put the letter in the bin and go upstairs and lay back in bed near Y/n cuddling softly into her drifting to sleep

a/n - sheesh this was long
Hope you liked it
I really hope no one will go through this
And if you did , I'm glad you are here now
And if you are going through this , please stay here , don't try stupid things , things will get better even if it seems that It won't
Take care if you guys
I love you
update: I wrote it through the day , now its night and I'm feeling better lmao