Vinnie Hacker imagines yk

Do you know how I felt

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warning : $elfharming

Y/n's pov

I've been depressed since I was like 15 and lately I started to feel really bad and I wasnt frelinglike myself and usually Vinnie is helping me but this time is different , she s hanging out with Emily every fucking single day so obviously he didnt has time to see what's happening with me
Oh and on top of that Emily is his ex , just amazing
I decided to talk with him today after he arrives home

Soon I hear the front door open and steps approaching our room signaling that it's Vinnie
« Hey » he says
Good , at least he says hi to me
« Hi » I respond and I look at him while he sits as his gaming chair putting on the headphones
I sit io from the bed and go to him leaning on the wall
« Vinnie » I say
« mhm » he hums not taking his eyes off of the pc
« Can you pay attention to me? » I say and he looks at me for 3 seconds and then he returns to the screen
I roll my eyes and speak
« What's going on between you and Emily? » I ask
« Nothing , we are just friends » he responds
« Really? she's your ex girlfriend and you hang out with her every day , you barely spend time with me » I say
« Y/n  , you are jealous » he says
« I-« I try to say but Vinnie's phone ringig cuts me off
« Hold on » he says picking up the phone
« Yea? Ok calm down , I'm coming in 10 » he says hanging up and I see on the screen « Emily »
Really? Is he serious?
« I have to go » he says rushing to the door
« Really Vinnie? » I say watching as he leaves
I close the door and break down , crying while sitting on the floor
I can't believe him , I try to talk things out and he just leaves letting me hanging just to go comfort Emily
I need comfort too , shit I haven't been feeling like myself lately and he didnt even notice. He doesn't care anymore ig

I've been sitting on the floor balling my eyes out for some hours overthinking everything that just made me feel worst ofc. I feel useless, not enough and unwanted
I went to the bathroom and I pulled a razor
I took a deep breath before I started to drag it on my skin making bloody cuts. It's been a while since I did this
Being busy with thinking about this stupid situation I haven't heard the bathroom door opening
"What the fuck are you doing Y/n" Vinnie says as I was making my way to the sink to clean the wounds
"Nothing" I respond wiping my tears
"A better question is what's going on between you and Emily" I say
"I told you it's nothing" he says rising his tone at the end
"What do you mean it's nothing?" I say
"You tell me that hangin up everyday with your ex is nothing?" I say
"yes" he respond sternly
"Vinnie do you realize that in the past weeks you've been hanging with Emily all day long and you ignored all of us (hype house members) , even me , like I can't even touch you cause you move. What the fuck is happening , just tell me" I say started to get irritated at his immaturity but at the same time feeling so sad cause he's acting strange , he's not the sweet caring Vinnie I fell in love with
" Do you even care about me anymore?" I ask
"Maybe I don't" he yells and I nod turning to leave the room and I know he's feeling guilty rn. As he should
"Y/n" he calls my name softly this tim but I ignore him going far away from his room in a free room where I can break down again
I sit on the bed clutching a pillow to my chest sobbing hard , nuzzling my head in the pillow to muffle the sound ; I put the cover over me , including my head
"You knew this was going on , why are you surprised" I think
I continued to let everything out until I fell asleep

Vinnie's pov

next morning

I analyzed the situation before I fell asleep and I just realized how stupidI was
She's right , I didn't really let her touch me lately, I haven't spent time with her , but instead I've been going out with Emily
It s not really a reason , we just started to get along well and get closer and I just had fun with her out but still,  this didn't mean I should've told Y/n that I don't care about her
And on top of that , I found her self harming and I didn't even comfort her
I do care about her , I was just mad and I said that out of anger

I want to make things right between us because I don't want to lose her , and if she wants to break up with me , I would prefer us to split but remain on good terms.
I wake up and go to the bathroom , I brush my teeth fast and my face , put some clothes on and make my way to the few free rooms in the house trying eventually to find Y/n
It didn't take too much untill I found her sleeping in one of the rooms
Her back was facing the door. I slowly sit onthe bed behind her putting slowly my hand on her
"Mhm" he mumbles
"What the fuck" she says in a morning voice shaking her body so she can move my hand
"Shhh" I whisper
"What the fuck do you want" she says her voice cracking at the end
"I'm sorry" I say putting my hand under her armpits lifting her a little holding her in between my legs
"I'm sorry , I really didn't mean it , I care about tou a lot and I'm sorry cause I haven't showed it a lot lately. I promise nothing is going on between me and Emily it's just we we're just having fun hanging , nothing more. I'm sorry for what I did" I say caressing her head while she was slightly sobbing in my chest
"I hate you so much" she says
"You were a dick , I hate you so much for that" she says
"I know baby , I know" I say stroking her head slightly playing with her hair
"I'm sorry and please do not cut again , please" I say
"I'm sorry cause I reacted like that yesterday , it was wrong" I say
"Yea , it was" she responded
"Do you know how fucking shitty I felt" she asks
"I know , I imagine how you felt , I'm sorry cause I made you  go through this" I apologize again kissing her head
"Please tell me we are good now" I say
"We are I guess , but do that shit again and I swear we'll never be good again. That's your last chance Vinnie" I say
"I w-"
"And if I ever hear of Emily again I'm gonna kidnap her and keep her in our basement" she says a smile appears on my face at her jealousy
"Yes ma'am , no Emily" I say and she slapps my chest
"Let's go eat something" I say
"No , I wanna go back to sleep" she says moving from my arms laying more comfortable on the bed
"Alright. I love you" I say pecking her lips
"I may love you too" she responds and I slowly push her shoulder
"Hey" I respond
"Sleep well" she says as she closes her eyes again

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