normal family

Chapter 5 (Bella)

As I finish my orange juice, I slowly get up, feeling light-headed. The pounding in my head started to get louder as I walk to the door. When I get to the door I see my dad towering
""}over me empty beer bottle in hand. I can smell the scent of alcohol already as he is only about 2 feet away from me. I feel intimidated, but I know not to show it. My dad stares at me and I know what's about to happen.
He begins to scream at me, his words slurring. I can barley make out what he's saying.
"I should throw this bottle at you for being such a disappointment." He says anger in his voice. As he gestures to throw his empty glass bottle at me, I run out the back door using all my strength.
As I run through my yard and jump over my fence, my head feels like it's about to explode. I push it off, and keep running. I remember the park that me and Hannah used to go to. I run faster and faster to the park trying to drown out my thoughts as I do. I know when I get to the park, I'll feel comfortable and safe. I can always feel Hannah with me when I'm there. The thought of Hannah starts scattering in my brain. I try to push it away and focus on the warm and comforting feelings I have when I'm at the park.
I finally reach the park. My feet feel like Jell-O. I feel as if my heart could come out of it's chest. I sit down at the only park bench, and lay my head. My head is throbbing with pain. I just watch the water fountain in front of me. The water is so beautiful and it shines bright as the sun reflects down on it. I feel someone tap my shoulder and I feel startled. "Sorry." the unfamiliar voice said, chuckling. "Didn't mean to scare you. May I sit?" He asks with sympathy in his voice. I look behind me and see his sparkling light purple eyes. "S-sure." I say, trying to stay calm. We start to have a conversation and I get lost in it, as time passes. He asks me why I seem sad. I can't think of what to say. Or maybe I can think of too many things to say. My mind starts racing, I don't want to seem dumb. And then the words just fall out of my mouth as if I didn't have control of my voice. "My life is falling apart." I say with a worried voice.
"I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like everyone hates me."
I look down at the gravel under my feet.
"I'm sorry if this is all so sudden. I don't want you to feel pressured into making me feel better." I say.
"Actually, I don't feel pressured.. I know what you mean. It's like everyone in the world hates you but at the same time you don't even feel like your in a world. You feel like your in your own universe."
"Yeah.." I say, feeling a weight being lifted off my shoulders.
"By the way, I'm Noah." He says, smiling.
"I'm Bella." I say.
"You probably haven't seen me, but I've seen you around school. We have the same English class. I always see you with that girl."
"Hannah?" I question.
"The girl with the blonde hair..?" He asks.
"Yeah that's her. We used to be best friends but I kinda yelled at her yesterday. Maybe it was just the heat of the moment, or maybe I was mad. I just feel like I don't even know my own feelings anymore." I say feeling insane as I do.
"It's like you can't even-"
His words cut out in my mind. I can hear other voices. Micheal.
I glance behind me and see my brother. I can't tell who's beside him. All I know is that they're a girl. I keep my gaze on them and then I finally see the girl he's with him. It's Hannah. I suddenly realize that Noah is still talking.
"You know?" He says finishing what he was saying while I was spaced out.
"Yeah umm, I gotta go. But I will see you at school okay?" I say hoping for a fast reply.
"Oh.. okay" he says looking kinda sad but I don't even care at that point. I try to follow Hannah and Michael without them knowing. I eventually get close enough to hear them.
"I know it's hard for you, Hannah." Says Micheal.
"I know I appreciate you, Micheal."
Then both they stay silent.
Micheal puts his arm around Hannah. I can feel their happiness. Something I haven't felt in awhile.
I don't feel angry but I don't feel happy for them. I can't believe they would do this to me.. there dating. But at the same time I can't blame them for being together. I wasn't good enough for either of them. At least that's what my parents would say. As im walking I trip and fall to the hard pavement. "Oww" I say. Feeling my chin burn. I touch it and look at my hand. There's blood everywhere. Micheal and Hannah look at me, shocked that I was following them. I get up and see the expressions on their faces. I can't form words. My chin aches with the pain from the fall, but yet I feel so guilty for following them that it goes numb.
"What were you thinking? You can't just follow us like a creep, Bella!" Micheal says, with anger in his voice.
I suddenly feel angry now too. "You guys are dating? What happened to friendship forever Hannah?"
"Don't bring her into this right now. You were the one following us." Micheal says getting more mad with every word.
I feel tears rolling down my cheeks and the only words I can form is "I hate you." and I run as fast as I can back to my house.
I look back at Hannah and Micheal one last time. Hannah's hands are in her face. I know I've messed up. But so has she.