god I thought I was addicted to cigarettes , but you made quitting so easy & I thought that I was an alcoholic but I don't even want to drink unless it means staying up all night giggling through intoxicated kisses with you & maybe we didn't meet early & we had to go through some broken bones so that we could heal , just to do it all over again & again & again but maybe we were made to meet each other because we are both that state of fucked up that a normal person just couldn't get . maybe the reason no one has understood you is because you have been talking to the people that don't know what exploring someone else's mind is like . I want to understand you & despite what you think , I will . I will know how you like your coffee , what you like on pizza , what annoys you (which I'll prolly use to my advantage) , what makes you happy , how to cheer you up or make you sad , your favorite cereal, candy , sleeping position , your favorite everything , I will know every single inch of your body & I will know the deepest & most shallow parts of your mind . I will know what crosses your mind everyday & I might not help the bad thoughts stop but I will listen & hold your hand even when they're cold . && I'll try my hardest to make sure you know you're not alone . because as long as I'm with you & as long as you'll let me you will never have to be alone through anything . & yes that means I'll be up your ass but I think we've both established I'm clingy as hell even when I'm mad at you . I still wanna talk to you . you're the only person I never get tired of . I love spending time with you , I love everything about you . I love that you aren't affectionate but when you are you can't stop & I love that you want to spoil me & how it pisses you off that I won't let you , I love how even when I wouldn't cook for you , you still got up & made me hot pockets , I love how you do that stupid hair flip even tho thats so basic but it makes me laugh . I love when I make you smile or laugh . seeing you happy makes me happy . I love cuddling with you & wrestling with you & oh my god I love having sex with you . I know I'm horny 24/7 but that's only because sex with you isn't like it has been . I don't get that uneasy feeling or get sick to my stomach . i don't feel the need to get dressed right after . no guy can take me to the place you can tbh . it's always a new feeling & for once I don't feel like that's all I'm worth . you make me think I mean something to you . I've never felt like that . you don't know how happy you make me . you know how I know I love you , even when were fighting , when I'm so pissed off I could explode . I still can't help but smile because i have you to fight with . I wouldn't want to yell with anyone else . I know I'm not "in love" with you . but I want to be . I want to have you for as long as you'll let me . & if at any point in the future , we don't last & I'm stuck thinking about you at 3 in the morning while chasing the taste of your lips out with vodka , it will be the biggest blessing to know I got the chance to love someone as breath taking as you . we haven't necessarily got connected on a deeper level . our minds are not intertwined but as long as our hands are then maybe our minds will follow . god I can't wait to fall in love with you . I swear it's all making sense to me now , no slip up could make me want you less , no fit you throw could ever be big enough to make me want to lose you , not even a bullet through my head would make me stop thinking about the way your eyes look when it's bright out side . you have the sweetest heart & I know it's closed . but I'll be the one to wait until you open it . because noone could make me as happy as you do everyday .everytime I'm around you I just can't stop thinking about how blessed I am . && you're right , we are just alike . in more ways then I really knew . but you've become like my other half . I don't know what I'd do without you . you're so original . I couldn't find someone like you if I searched this entire earth which is scary but also so amazing . it's like this so many people are together & not even in love . feelings are rarely mutual, so when they are, drop everything, forget expectations, forget the games, the days between texts, the hard to gets because this is what the entire world is after and we've come across it by accident . so fuck the opinions and common sense crash down around you. fuck the people that talk shit . Because this is all ours. Believe me, I'm in it for the long run .
