Behind These Walls

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CRYSTAL'S POV

I was woken up by someone shaking me slightly. I open my eyes, quickly shutting them due to the light that was shooting straight into them. I then look up and see Starr with a tray of food and some aspirin with a glass of water. I then remember what had happened yesterday. I can't being to imagine how angry my father is right now. I gulp and try hiding my nerves from Starr. I say thanks and she places the tray on the bedside table.

I felt Starr staring at me so I turned my head towards her. She looked like she wanted to ask some questions, there was a cloud of curiosity forming in her eyes, so before she could say anything I told her I was going to freshen up. I splashed the cold water on my warm face. I was scared, I seriously don't wanna lie. I need to go home as soon as possible because wherever dad is, he is breathing dragon fire, if not a whole volcano.

I got finished and wore yesterday's clothes since I didn't have mine. I look for my phone and found it under the pillow. I checked the time but my eyes went straight for the date. It was Lewis's funeral today, I had told the mortuary to cremate his body and throw his ashes in the river. That way my father won't have a problem with having an aurn of his ashes. I wiped the silent tears and went downstairs.

There I found Starr making breakfast. I sat down and waited patiently for her to finish. We ate with a rather awkward atmosphere. I could see her stealing a few glances towards me, but I chose to keep quite and let her be, because I didn't want to explain anything as yet. "So you are seriously going to ignore me Crys?" She asks placing down her fork. I look at her with raised eyebrows. "You weren't even talking." I said back to her. She sighs and looks at me. "Crystal what happened yesterday?" She asked looking me in the eyes as if trying to reach to my soul, I kept a straight face and built up my walls even higher so she wouldn't read me easily.

"I don't wanna talk about it."I say to her and play around with my food." Come on Crystal you ha-"."I just lost my appetite." I said to her rising from the chair going to the kitchen. I heard her sigh heavily, but I ignored her. I seriously didn't know how I could explain the panic attack I had without mentioning my father. So I just had to avoid any question about yesterday. At around midday I decided to go back home which is an hour walk from Starr's place, I needed to clear my mind so I didn't mind the distance.

I got home quicker than I intended. I'm here now so I have to face the music because I know he is home. I make my way inside. The place is unusually clean, and by unusually clean I mean there is about 5 bottles of beer scattered on the table, some bags of chips lying around the room and some cigar ashes on the floor and ash tray. On normal days, there would be a much bigger mess then there is right now.

After cleaning I went to my room. I kept on thinking about what to tell my father. I knew he wouldn't believe me even if I tell him the truth. I sighed and soon enough I felt my eyelids become heavy and I fell into a dream less sleep.